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  My tongue tentatively strokes his and joins his in a slow erotic dance that’s all about touch and sensation, all bump and grind. He brings his hand up to grasp my chin and holds me in place. I am helpless, my hands pinned, my face held, and his hips restraining me. . I feel his erection against my belly. Oh my… He wants me. Christian Grey, Greek god, wants me, and I want him, here… now, in the elevator.

  “You. Are. So. Sweet,” he murmurs, each word a staccato.

  The elevator stops, the doors open, and he pushes away from me in the blink of an eye, leaving me hanging. Three men in business suits look at both of us and smirk as they climb on board. My heart rate is through the roof, I feel like I’ve run an uphill race. I want to lean over and grasp my knees… but that’s just too obvious.

  I glance up at him. He looks so cool and calm, like he’s been doing the Seattle Times crossword. How unfair. Is he totally unaffected by my presence? He glances at me out of the corner of his eye, and he gently blows out a deep breath. Oh, he’s affected all right

  – and my very small inner goddess sways in a gentle victorious samba. The businessmen exit on the second floor. We have one more floor to travel.

  “You’ve brushed your teeth,” he says, staring at me.

  “I used your toothbrush,” I breathe.

  His lips quirk up in a half smile.

  “Oh, Anastasia Steele, what am I going to do with you?”

  The doors open at the first floor, and he takes my hand and pulls me out.

  “What is it about elevators?” he mutters, more to himself than to me as he strides across the lobby. I struggle to keep pace with him because my wits have been thoroughly, royally, scattered all over the floor and walls of elevator three in the Heathman Hotel.

  Christian opens the passenger door to the black Audi SUV, and I clamber in. It’s a beast of a car. He hasn’t mentioned the outburst of passion that exploded in the elevator. Should I? Should we talk about it or pretend that it didn’t happen? It hardly seems real, my first proper no-holds-barred kiss. As time ticks on, I assign it mythical, Arthurian legend, Lost City of Atlantis status. It never happened, it never existed. Perhaps I imagined it all. No.

  I touch my lips, swollen from his kiss. It definitely happened. I am a changed woman. I want this man, desperately, and he wanted me.

  I glance at him. Christian is his usual polite, slightly distant self.

  How confusing.

  He starts the engine and reverses out of his space in the parking lot. He switches on the MP3 player. The car interior is filled with the sweetest, most magical music of two women singing. Oh wow… all my senses are in disarray, so this is doubly affecting. It sends delicious shivers up my spine. Christian pulls out on to SW Park Avenue, and he drives with easy, lazy confidence.

  “What are we listening to?”

  “It’s the Flower Duet by Delibes, from the opera Lakmé. Do you like it?”

  “Christian, it’s wonderful.”

  “It is, isn’t it?” he grins, glancing at me. And for a fleeting moment, he seems his age; young, carefree, and heart-stoppingly beautiful. Is this the key to him? Music? I sit and listen to the angelic voices, teasing and seducing me.

  “Can I hear that again?”

  “Of course.” Christian pushes a button, and the music is caressing me once more. It’s a gentle, slow, sweet, and sure assault on my aural senses.

  “You like classical music?” I ask, hoping for a rare insight into his personal preferences.

  “My taste is eclectic, Anastasia, everything from Thomas Tallis to the Kings of Leon.

  It depends on my mood. You?”

  “Me too. Though I don’t know who Thomas Tallis is.”

  He turns and gazes at me briefly before his eyes are back on the road.

  “I’ll play it for you sometime. He’s a sixteenth century British composer. Tudor, church choral music.” Christian grins at me. “Sounds very esoteric, I know, but it’s also magical, Anastasia.”

  He presses a button, and the Kings of Leon start singing. Hmm… this I know. Sex on Fire. How appropriate. The music is interrupted by the sound of a cell phone ringing over the MP3 speakers. Christian hits a button on the steering wheel.

  “Grey,” he snaps. He’s so brusque.

  “Mr. Grey, it’s Welch here. I have the information you require.” A rasping, disembodied voice comes over the speakers.

  “Good. Email it to me. Anything to add?”

  “No sir.”

  He presses the button, then the call ceases and the music is back. No goodbye or thanks. I’m so glad that I never seriously entertained the thought of working for him. I shudder at the very idea. He’s just too controlling and cold with his employees. The music cuts off again for the phone.

  “Grey.”

  “The NDA has been emailed to you, Mr. Grey.” A woman’s voice.

  “Good. That’s all, Andrea.”

  “Good day, sir.”

  Christian hangs up by pressing a button on the steering wheel. The music is on very briefly when the phone rings again. Holy hell, is this his life, constant nagging phone calls?

  “Grey,” he snaps.

  “Hi, Christian, d’you get laid?”

  “Hello, Elliot – I’m on speaker phone, and I’m not alone in the car,” Christian sighs.

  “Who’s with you?”

  Christian rolls his eyes.

  “Anastasia Steele.”

  “Hi, Ana!”

  Ana!

  “Hello, Elliot.”

  “Heard a lot about you,” Elliot murmurs huskily. Christian frowns.

  “Don’t believe a word Kate says.”

  Elliot laughs.

  “I’m dropping Anastasia off now.” Christian emphasizes my name. “Shall I pick you up?”“Sure.”

  “See you shortly.” Christian hangs up, and the music is back.

  “Why do you insist on calling me Anastasia?”

  “Because it’s your name.”

  “I prefer Ana.”

  “Do you now?” he murmurs.

  We are almost at my apartment. It’s not taken long.

  “Anastasia,” he muses. I scowl at him, but he ignores my expression. “What happened in the elevator - it won’t happen again, well, not unless it’s premeditated.”

  He pulls up outside my duplex. I belatedly realize he’s not asked me where I live - yet he knows. But then he sent the books, of course he knows where I live. What able, cell-phone-tracking, helicopter owning, stalker wouldn’t.

  Why won’t he kiss me again? I pout at the thought. I don’t understand. Honestly, his surname should be Cryptic, not Grey. He climbs out of the car, walking with easy, long-legged grace round to my side to open the door, ever the gentleman - except perhaps in rare, precious moments in elevators. I flush at the memory of his mouth on mine, and the thought that I’d been unable to touch him enters my mind. I wanted to run my fingers through his decadent, untidy hair, but I’d been unable to move my hands. I am retrospectively frustrated.

  “I liked what happened in the elevator,” I murmur as I climb out of the car. I’m not sure if I hear an audible gasp, but I choose to ignore it and head up the steps to the front door.

  Kate and Elliot are sitting at our dining table. The fourteen-thousand-dollar books have disappeared. Thank heavens. I have plans for them. She has the most un-Kate ridiculous grin on her face, and she looks mussed up in a sexy kind of way. Christian follows me into the living area, and in spite of her I’ve-been-having-a-good-time-all-night grin, Kate eyes him suspiciously.

  “Hi Ana.” She leaps up to hug me, then holds me at arm’s length so she can examine me. She frowns and turns to Christian.

  “Good morning, Christian,” she says, and her tone is a little hostile.

  “Miss Kavanagh,” he says in his stiff formal way.

  “Christian, her name is Kate,” Elliot grumbles.

  “Kate.” Christian gives her a polite nod and glares at Elliot who grins and rises to hug me to
o.

  “Hi, Ana,” he smiles, his blue eyes twinkling, and I like him immediately. He’s obviously nothing like Christian, but then they’re adopted brothers.

  “Hi, Elliot,” I smile at him, and I’m aware that I’m biting my lip.

  “Elliot, we’d better go.” Christian says mildly.

  “Sure.” He turns to Kate and pulls her into his arms and gives her a long lingering kiss.

  Jeez… get a room. I stare at my feet, embarrassed. I glance up at Christian, and he’s watching me intently. I narrow my eyes at him. Why can’t you kiss me like that? Elliot continues to kiss Kate, sweeping her off her feet and dipping her in a dramatic hold so that her hair touches the ground as he kisses her hard.

  “Laters, baby,” he grins.

  Kate just melts. I’ve never seen her melt before – the words comely and compliant come to mind. Compliant Kate, boy, Elliot must be good. Christian rolls his eyes and stares down at me, his expression unreadable, although maybe he’s mildly amused. He tucks a stray strand of my hair that has worked its way free from my ponytail behind my ear. My breath hitches at the contact, and I lean my head slightly into his fingers. His eyes soften, and he runs his thumb across my lower lip. My blood sears in my veins. And all too quickly, his touch is gone.

  “Laters, baby,” he murmurs, and I have to laugh because it’s so unlike him. But even though I know he’s being irreverent, the endearment tugs at something deep inside me.

  “I’ll pick you up at eight.” He turns to leave, opening the front door and stepping out on to the porch. Elliot follows him to the car but turns and blows Kate another kiss, and I feel an unwelcome pang of jealousy.

  “So, did you?” Kate asks as we watch them climb into the car and drive off, the burning curiosity evident in her voice.

  “No,” I snap irritably, hoping that will halt the questions. We head back into the apartment. “You obviously did, though.” I can’t contain my envy. Kate always manages to ensnare men. She is irresistible, beautiful, sexy, funny, forward… all the things that I’m not. But her answering grin is infectious.

  “And I’m seeing him again this evening.” She claps her hands and jumps up and down like a small child. She cannot contain her excitement and happiness, and I can’t help but feel happy for her. A happy Kate… this is going to be interesting.

  “Christian is taking me to Seattle this evening.”

  “Seattle?”

  “Yes.”

  “Maybe you will then?”

  “Oh, I hope so.”

  “You like him then?”

  “Yes.”

  “Like him enough to… ?”

  “Yes.”

  She raises her eyebrows.

  “Wow. Ana Steele, finally falling for a man, and it’s Christian Grey – hot, sexy billionaire.”

  “Oh yeah – it’s all about the money.” I smirk, and we both fall into a fit of giggles.

  “Is that a new blouse?” she asks, and I let her have all the unexciting details about my night.

  “Has he kissed you yet?” she asks as she makes coffee.

  I blush.

  “Once.”

  “Once!” she scoffs.

  I nod, rather shame faced.

  “He’s very reserved.”

  She frowns.

  “That’s odd.”

  “I don’t think odd covers it really,” I murmur.

  “We need to make sure you’re simply irresistible for this evening,” she says with determination.

  Oh no… this sounds like it will be time consuming, humiliating, and painful.

  “I have to be at work in an hour.”

  “I can work with that timeframe. Come on.” Kate grabs my hand and takes me into her bedroom.

  The day drags at Clayton’s even though we’re busy. We’ve hit the summer season, so I have to spend two hours restocking the shelves once the shop is closed. It’s mindless work, and it gives me too much time to think. I’ve not really had a chance all day.

  Under Kate’s tireless and frankly intrusive instruction, my legs and underarms are shaved to perfection, my eyebrows plucked, and I am buffed all over. It has been a most unpleasant experience. But she assures me that this is what men expect these days. What else will he expect? I have to convince Kate that this is what I want to do. For some strange reason, she doesn’t trust him, maybe because he’s so stiff and formal. She says she can’t put her finger on it, but I have promised to text her when I arrive in Seattle. I haven’t told her about the helicopter, she’d freak.

  I also have the José issue. He’s left three messages and seven missed calls on my cell.

  He’s also called home twice. Kate has been very vague as to where I am. He’ll know she’s covering for me. Kate doesn’t do vague. But I have decided to let him stew. I’m still too angry with him.

  Christian mentioned some kind of written paperwork, and I don’t know if he was joking or if I’m going to have to sign something. It’s so frustrating trying to guess. And on top of all the angst, I can barely contain my excitement or my nerves. Tonight’s the night!

  After all this time, am I ready for this? My inner goddess glares at me, tapping her small foot impatiently. She’s been ready for this for years, and she’s ready for anything with Christian Grey, but I still don’t understand what he sees in me… mousey Ana Steele - it makes no sense.

  He is punctual, of course, and waiting for me when I leave Clayton’s. He climbs out of the back of the Audi to open the door and smiles warmly at me.

  “Good evening, Miss Steele,” he says.

  “Mr. Grey.” I nod politely to him as I climb into the backseat of the car. Taylor is sitting in the driver’s seat.

  “Hello, Taylor,” I say.

  “Good evening, Miss Steele,” his voice is polite and professional. Christian climbs in the other side and clasps my hand, giving it a gentle squeeze that I feel all the way though my body.

  “How was work?” he asks.

  “Very long,” I reply, and my voice is husky, too low, and full of need.

  “Yes, it’s been a long day for me too.” His tone is serious.

  “What did you do?” I manage.

  “I went hiking with Elliot.” His thumb strokes my knuckles, back and forth, and my heart skips a beat as my breathing accelerates. How does he do this to me? He’s only touching a very small area of my body, and the hormones are flying.

  The drive to the heliport is short and, before I know it, we arrive. I wonder where the fabled helicopter might be. We’re in a built-up area of the city and even I know helicopters need space to take off and land. Taylor parks, climbs out, and opens my car door. Christian is beside me in an instant and takes my hand again.

  “Ready?” he asks. I nod and want to say for anything, but I can’t articulate the words as I’m too nervous, too excited.

  “Taylor.” He nods curtly at his driver, and we head into the building, straight to a set of elevators. Elevator! The memory of our kiss this morning comes back to haunt me.

  I have thought of nothing else all day. Daydreaming at the register at Clayton’s. Twice Mr. Clayton had to shout my name to bring me back to Earth. To say I’ve been distracted would be the understatement of the year. Christian glances down at me, a slight smile on his lips. Ha! He’s thinking about it too.

  “It’s only three floors,” he says dryly, his gray eyes dancing with amusement. He’s telepathic surely. It’s spooky.

  I try to keep my face impassive as we enter the elevator. The doors close, and it’s there, the weird electrical attraction crackling between us, enslaving me. I close my eyes in a vain attempt to ignore it. He tightens his grip on my hand, and five seconds later the doors open on to the roof of the building. And there it is, a white helicopter with the name Grey Enterprises Holdings Inc. written in blue with the company logo on the side. Surely this is misuse of Company property.

  He leads me to a small office where an old timer sits behind the desk.

  “Here’s yo
ur flight plan, Mr. Grey. All external checks are done. It’s ready and waiting sir. You’re free to go.”

  “Thank you, Joe.” Christian smiles warmly at him.

  Oh. Someone deserving of the polite treatment from Christian, perhaps he’s not an employee. I stare at the old guy in awe.

  “Let’s go,” Christian says, and we make our way toward the helicopter. When we’re up close, it’s much bigger than I thought. I expected it to be a roadster version for two, but it has at least seven seats. Christian opens the door and directs me to one of the seats at the very front.

  “Sit – don’t touch anything,” he orders as he clambers in behind me.

  He shuts the door with a slam. I’m glad that the area is floodlit, otherwise I’d find it difficult to see inside the small cockpit. I sit down in my allotted seat, and he crouches beside me to strap me into the harness. It’s a four-point harness with all the straps connecting to one central buckle. He tightens both of the upper straps, so I can hardly move.

  He’s so close and intent on what he’s doing. If I could only lean forward, my nose would be in his hair. He smells, clean, fresh, heavenly, but I’m fastened securely into my seat and effectively immobile. He glances up and smiles, like he’s enjoying his usual private joke, his gray eyes heated. He’s so tantalizingly close. I hold my breath as he pulls at one of the upper straps.

  “You’re secure, no escaping,” he whispers, his eyes are scorching. “Breathe, Anastasia,” he adds softly. Reaching up, he caresses my cheek, running his long fingers down to my chin which he grasps between his thumb and forefinger. He leans forward and plants a brief, chaste kiss on my lips, leaving me reeling, my insides clenching at the thrilling, unexpected touch of his lips.

  “I like this harness,” he whispers.

  What?

  He sits down beside me and buckles himself into his seat, then begins a protracted procedure of checking gauges and flipping switches and buttons from the mind-boggling array of dials and lights and switches in front of me. Little lights wink and flash from various dials, and the whole of the instrument panel lights up.

  “Put your cans on,” he says, pointing to a set of headphones in front of me. I pop them on, and the rotor blades start. They are deafening. He puts his headphones on and continues flipping various switches.