Fifty Shades Freed
The Writer's Coffee Shop
First published by The Writer's Coffee Shop, 2012
Copyright © E L James, 2012
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About the Author
Since early childhood. she dreaml of writing siories thai readers would fall in love
with, bill pnl ihose dreams on hold lo i'ocus on her family and her career. She 11-
nally plucked up the courage to put pen to paper « ill) her first no el. Fifty Shades
of (// c i h L I inies v i 1 1 in n 1 1 i i 1 I ui i
Thanks to: Niall, my rock;
To Kathleen for just being a great sounding board, friend, confidante and a tech-
To Bee for endless moral support;
To Taylor (also a technical wiz), Susi, Pam and Nora for showing a girl a good
And for their advice and tact I'd really like to thank:
Dr. R;iina Sluder for help w illi all mailers medical:
Anne Forlincs for the financial advice;
Elizabeth de Yos for her kind counsel regarding the American adoption system.
Thank- to Maddie Blandino for her exquisite, inspirational art.
And to Pam and Gillian lor Salurda> morning coffee and hauling me back to real
Also thanks to my editing team Andrea. Shay anal the e or Io ely and only occa-
sionalK frothing lanine. who tolerate- m frothing with patience, fortitude and a
great sense of humour.
And lastly to Amanda and all at The Writer's Coffee Shop Publishing
House — Thank you.
Para ml Mama con todo ml amory gratltud
And for my beloved Father
Daddy, I miss you every day
Mommy! Mommy! Mommy is asleep on the floor. She has been
doesn't wake up. I shake her. Mommy! My tummy hurts. It is
sink, and I have a drink. The water splashes over my blue sweater.
Mommy is still asleep. Momim wake up! She lies still. She is cold.
I fetch my blankie, and I cover Mommy, and I lie down on the
siick> green rug beside her. Mommy is still asleep. I have two toy
cars. They race by the floor where Mommy is sleeping. I think
Mommy is sick, i search for something lo eal. In the freezer 1 find
peas. They arc cold. I eal them slow l> . The;, make my tummy hurt. I
sleep beside Mommy. The peas are gone. In the freezer is
something. 11 smells funny. 1 lick il and m tongue is stuck to it. I
eat it slowly. It tastes nasl . I drink Mime w ater. I play with my cars,
and I sleep beside Momim Iomm is so cold, and she won't wake
up. The door crashes open. I cover Mommy with my blankie. He's
here. Fuck II hat il i >/*•; hen Oh, the crazy fucked up
bitch. Shit. Fuck. Get out of my way. you little shit. He kicks me, and
I hit my head on the floor. My head hurts. He calls somebody and he
goes. He locks the door. I la dow u beside Mommy. My head hurts.
The lady policeman is here. No. No. No. Don't touch me. Don't
touch me. Don't touch me. I stay by Mommy. No. Stay away from
me. The lady policeman has my blankie, and she grabs me. I
scream. Mommy! Mommy! I want my Mommy. The words are
gone. 1 can't say die words. Monunv can'! hear me. I have no
nightmare, the depths of his despair. "I'm here. I'm here."
i I i ii i in I l i hi i
mouth. "You're here."
"I had a dream . . ."
"Ana." He breathe-, her name, and it's a talisman against the black clinking
p 1 ' ours i . Ihn ugh Ins body.
"Hush, I'm here." She curls around him, her limbs cocooning him, her
warmth leeching int i forcing back I his k icing back the fear.
She is sunshine, she is light ... she is his.
"Please Id's no; fight." His voice is hoarse as lie w raps his arms around her.
"The vows. No obc\ ing. 1 can do that. We'll find a \a ." Tlic words rush out
of his mouth in a tumble of emotion and confusion and anxiety.
"Yes. We will. We'll always find a way," she whispers and her lips are on
his, silencing him, bringing him back to the now.
I stare up through g t > i the i grass pai I at the bit 1 skies, summer blue,
Mediterranean blue v. ill) a contented sigh. Christian is beside me. stretched out on
a sun lounger. My husband — my hot, beautiful husband, shirtless, and in cut-off
jeans — is reading a book predicting the collapse of the Western banking system.
more like a student than the hotshot (. k( > of one the top priately owned compan-
On the final leg oh our honeymoon, we laze in die afternoon sun on the beach
of the aptly named Beach Plaza Monte Carlo in Monaco, although we're not
actually staying in this hotel. 1 open my eyes and gaze out at the Fair Lady
anchored in the harbor. We Lire slaying, of course, on board a luxury motor yacht.
Built in 1928, she floats majestically on the water, queen of the all the yachts in
the harbor. She looks like a child's wind-up toy. Christian loves her — I suspect
he's tempted to buy her. i loncslly. bos and their toys.
Sitting back, I listen to the Christian Grey mix on my new iPod and doze in
the hue afternoon sun, idly remembering his proposal. Oh his dreamy proposal in
the boathousc ... 1 can almost -.nicll the seem ol'lhe meadow Honors . . -
"Can we marry tomorrow?" Christian murmurs softly in my ear. I am spraw led on
his chest in the flowery bower in the boathouse, sated from our passionate
"Is that a yes?" I hear his hopeful surprise.
I sense his grin. ""Miss Steele, are ou incoherent?"
lie laughs and hugs me tightly, kissing the top of my head. "Vegas, tomor-
Sleepily I raise my head. "I don't think my parents would be very happy with
He thrums his fingertips up and down my nal i i i
"What do you want, Anastasia? Vegas? A big wedding with all the trim-
mings? Tell me."
"Not big . . . Just friends and family." I gaze up at him moved by the quiet
entreaty in hi;, glow in. s il does he want?
"Okay." He nods. "Where?"
"Could we do it here?" he asks tentatively.
"Your folks' place? Would they mind?"
He snorts. "My mother would be in seventh heaven."
"Okay, here. I'm sure my mom and dad would prefer that."