Fifty Shades Trilogy 01 - Fifty Shades of Grey Read online

  One of the Vice Chancellors rises, and we begin the long, tedious process of collecting our degrees. There are over four hundred to be given out, and it takes just over an hour before I hear my name. I make my way up to the stage between the two giggling girls. Christian gazes down at me, his look warm but guarded.

  “Congratulations, Miss Steele,” he says as he shakes my hand, squeezing it gently. I feel the charge of his flesh on mine. “Do you have a problem with your laptop?”

  I frown as he hands me my degree.

  “No.”

  “Then you are ignoring my e-mails?”

  “I only saw the mergers and acquisitions one.”

  He looks quizzically at me.

  “Later,” he says, and I have to move on because I’m holding up the line.

  I go back to my seat. E-mails? He must have sent another. What did it say?

  The ceremony takes another hour to conclude. It’s interminable. Finally, the Chancellor leads the faculty members off the stage to yet more rousing applause, preceded by Christian and Kate. Christian does not glance at me, even though I’m willing him to do it. My inner goddess is not pleased.

  As I stand and wait for our row to disperse, Kate calls to me. She’s heading my way from behind the stage.

  “Christian wants to talk to you,” she shouts. The two girls who are now standing beside me turn and gape at me.

  “He’s sent me out here,” she continues.

  Oh…

  “Your speech was great, Kate.”

  “It was, wasn’t it?” she beams. “Are you coming? He can be very insistent.” She rolls her eyes, and I grin.

  “You have no idea. I can’t leave Ray for long.” I glance up at Ray and hold my fingers up indicating five minutes. He nods, giving me an okay sign, and I follow Kate into the corridor behind the stage. Christian is talking to the Chancellor and two of the teaching staff. He looks up when he sees me.

  “Excuse me, gentlemen,” I hear him murmur. He comes toward me and smiles briefly at Kate.

  “Thank you,” he says, and before she can reply, he takes my elbow and steers me into what looks like a men’s locker room. He checks to see if it’s empty, and then he locks the door.

  Holy shit, what does he have in mind? I blink up at him as he turns on me.

  “Why haven’t you e-mailed me? Or texted me back?” He glares. I’m nonplussed.

  “I haven’t looked at my computer today, or my phone.” Crap, has he been trying to call? I try my distraction technique that’s so effective on Kate. “That was a great speech.”

  “Thank you.”

  “Explains your food issues to me.”

  He runs a hand through his hair, exasperated.

  “Anastasia, I don’t want to go there at the moment.” He closes his eyes, looking pained. “I’ve been worried about you.”

  “Worried, why?”

  “Because you went home in that deathtrap you call a car.”

  “What? It’s not a deathtrap. It’s fine. José regularly services it for me.”

  “José, the photographer?” Christian’s eyes narrow, his face frosting. Oh, crap.

  “Yes, the Beetle used to belong to his mother.”

  “Yes, and probably her mother and her mother before her. It’s not safe.”

  “I’ve been driving it for over three years. I’m sorry you were worried. Why didn’t you call?” Jeez, he’s completely overreacting.

  He takes a deep breath.

  “Anastasia, I need an answer from you. This waiting around is driving me crazy.”

  “Christian, I… look, I’ve left my stepdad on his own.”

  “Tomorrow. I want an answer by tomorrow.”

  “Okay. Tomorrow, I’ll tell you then.” I blink at him.

  He steps back, regarding me coolly, and his shoulders relax.

  “Are you staying for drinks?” he asks.

  “I don’t know what Ray wants to do.”

  “Your stepfather? I’d like to meet him.”

  Oh no… why?

  “I’m not sure that’s a good idea.”

  Christian unlocks the door, his mouth in a grim line.

  “Are you ashamed of me?”

  “No!” It’s my turn to sound exasperated. “Introduce you to my dad as what? ‘This is the man who deflowered me and wants us to start a BDSM relationship’. You’re not wearing running shoes.”

  Christian glares down at me, and then his lips twitch up in a smile. And in spite of the fact I’m mad at him, my face is unwillingly pulled into an answering grin.

  “Just so you know, I can run quite fast. Just tell him I’m your friend, Anastasia.”

  He opens the door, and I head out. My mind is whirling. The Chancellor, the three Vice Chancellors, four professors, and Kate stare at me as I walk hastily past them. Holy crap. Leaving Christian with the faculty I go in search of Ray.

  Tell him I’m your friend. Friend with benefits, my subconscious scowls. I know, I know. I shake the unpleasant thought away. How will I introduce him to Ray? The hall is still at least half full, and Ray has not moved from his spot. He sees me, waves, and makes his way down.

  “Hey, Annie. Congratulations.” He puts his arm around me.

  “Would you like to come and have a drink in the marquee?”

  “Sure. It’s your day. Lead the way.”

  “We don’t have to if you don’t want to.” Please say no…

  “Annie, I’ve just sat for two and half hours listening to all kinds of jabbering. I need a drink.”

  I put my arm through his, and we stroll out with the throng into the warmth of the early afternoon. We pass the line for the official photographer.

  “Oh, that reminds me.” Ray drags a digital camera out of his pocket. “One for the album, Annie.” I roll my eyes at him as he snaps a picture of me.

  “Can I take the cap and gown off now? I feel kind of dorky.”

  You look kinda dorky… my subconscious is at her snarky best. So are you going to introduce Ray to the man you’re fucking? She is glaring at me over her wing-shaped spectacles. He’d be so proud. God, I hate her sometimes.

  The marquee is immense, and crowded – students, parents, teachers, and friends, all chattering happily. Ray hands me a glass of champagne or cheap fizzy wine, I suspect. It’s not chilled, and it tastes sweet. My thoughts turn to Christian… he won’t like this.

  “Ana!” I turn, and Ethan Kavanagh scoops me into his arms. He twirls me around, without spilling my wine - some feat.

  “Congratulations!” He beams down at me, green eyes twinkling.

  What a surprise. His dirty blonde hair is tousled and sexy-looking. He’s as beautiful as Kate. The family resemblance is striking.

  “Wow – Ethan! How lovely to see you. Dad, this is Ethan, Kate’s brother. Ethan, this is my dad, Ray Steele.” They shake hands, my dad coolly assessing Mr. Kavanagh.

  “When did you get back from Europe?” I ask.

  “I’ve been back for a week, but I wanted to surprise my little sister,” he says conspiratorially.

  “That’s so sweet.” I grin up at him.

  “She is Valedictorian, couldn’t miss that.” He looks immensely proud of his sister.

  “She gave a great speech.”

  “That she did,” Ray agrees.

  Ethan has his arm around my waist when I look up into the frosty gray eyes of Christian Grey. Kate is beside him.

  “Hello, Ray,” Kate kisses Ray on both cheeks, making him blush. “Have you met Ana’s boyfriend? Christian Grey.”

  Holy shit… Kate! Fuck! All the blood drains from my face.

  “Mr. Steele, it’s a pleasure to meet you.” Christian says smoothly, warmly, completely unflustered by Kate’s introduction. He holds out his hand, which, all credit to Ray, Ray takes, not showing a hint of the drop-dead surprise he’s just had thrust upon him.

  Thank you very much, Katherine Kavanagh, I fume. I think my subconscious has fainted.

  “Mr. Grey,” Ray
murmurs, his expression indecipherable except perhaps for the slight widening of his big brown eyes. They slide over my face with a when-were-you-going-to-give-me-this-news look. I bite my lip.

  “And this is my brother, Ethan Kavanagh.” says Kate to Christian.

  Christian turns his arctic glare on Ethan, who still has one arm around me.

  “Mr. Kavanagh.”

  They shake hands. Christian holds his hand out to me.

  “Ana, baby,” he murmurs, and I nearly expire at the endearment.

  I walk out of Ethan’s grasp, while Christian smiles icily at him, and I take my place at his side. Kate grins at me. She knows exactly what she’s doing, the vixen!

  “Ethan, Mom and Dad wanted a word.” Kate drags Ethan away.

  “So how long have you kids known each other?” Ray looks impassively from Christian to me.

  The power of speech has deserted me. I want the ground to swallow me up. Christian puts his arm around me, his thumb skimming my naked back in a caress, before his hand clasps my shoulder.

  “Couple of weeks or so now,” he says smoothly. “We met when Anastasia came to interview me for the student magazine.”

  “Didn’t know you worked on the student magazine, Ana.” Ray’s voice is a quiet admonishment, revealing his irritation. Shit.

  “Kate was ill,” I murmur. It’s all I can manage.

  “Fine speech you gave, Mr. Grey.”

  “Thank you, sir. I understand that you’re a keen fisherman.”

  Ray raises his eyebrows and smiles – a rare, genuine, bona fide Ray Steele smile – and off they go, talking fish. In fact, I soon feel surplus to requirements. He’s charming the pants off my dad… like he did you, my subconscious snaps at me. His power knows no bounds. I excuse myself to go and find Kate.

  She’s talking to her parents, who are delightful as ever and greet me warmly. We exchange brief pleasantries, mostly about their up and coming holiday to Barbados and about our move.

  “Kate, how could you out me to Ray?” I hiss at the first opportunity we won’t be overheard.

  “Because I knew you never would, and I want to help with Christian’s commitment issues.” Kate smiles at me sweetly.

  I scowl. It’s me that won’t commit to him, silly!

  “He seems trés cool about it, Ana. Don’t sweat it. Look at him now – Christian cannot take his eyes off you.” I glance up, and both Ray and Christian are looking at me. “He’s been watching you like a hawk.”

  “I’d better go rescue Ray or Christian. I don’t know which. You haven’t heard the last of this, Katherine Kavanagh!” I glare at her.

  “Ana, I did you a favor,” she calls after me.

  “Hi.” I smile at both of them on my return.

  They seem okay. Christian is enjoying some private joke, and my dad looks unbelievably relaxed given he’s in a social situation. What have they been discussing apart from fish?

  “Ana, where are the restrooms?”

  “Back out front of the marquee and to the left.”

  “See you in a moment. You kids enjoy yourselves.”

  Ray heads out. I glance nervously up at Christian. We pause briefly as a photographer takes a picture of both of us.

  “Thank you, Mr. Grey.” The photographer scurries off. I blink from the flash.

  “So you’ve charmed my father as well?”

  “As well?” Christian’s gray eyes burn and he raises a questioning eyebrow. I flush. He lifts his hand and traces my cheek with his fingers.

  “Oh, I wish I knew what you were thinking, Anastasia,” he whispers darkly, cupping my chin and raising my head so that we gaze intently into each other’s eyes.

  My breath hitches. How can he have this effect on me, even in this crowded tent?

  “Right now, I’m thinking, nice tie,” I breathe.

  He chuckles.

  “It’s recently become my favorite.”

  I blush scarlet.

  “You look lovely, Anastasia. This halter-neck dress suits you, and I get to stroke your back, feel your beautiful skin.”

  Suddenly, it’s like we’re on our own in the room. Just the two of us. My whole body has come alive, every nerve ending singing softly, that electricity pulling me to him, charging between us.

  “You know it’s going to be good, don’t you, baby?” he whispers. I close my eyes as my insides uncoil and melt.

  “But I want more,” I whisper.

  “More?” he looks down at me puzzled, his eyes darkening. I nod and swallow. Now he knows.

  “More,” he says again softly. Testing the word – a small, simple word, but so full of promise. His thumb traces my lower lip. “You want hearts and flowers.”

  I nod again. He blinks down at me, and I watch his internal struggle played out in his eyes.

  “Anastasia.” His voice is soft. “It’s not something I know.”

  “Me neither.”

  He smiles slightly.

  “You don’t know much,” he murmurs.

  “You know all the wrong things.”

  “Wrong? Not to me.” He shakes his head. He looks so sincere. “Try it,” he whispers. A challenge, daring me, and he cocks his head to one side and smiles his crooked, dazzling smile.

  I gasp, and I’m Eve in the Garden of Eden, and he’s the serpent, and I cannot resist.

  “Okay,” I whisper.

  “What?” I have his full, undivided attention. I swallow.

  “Okay. I’ll try.”

  “You’re agreeing?” His disbelief is evident.

  “Subject to the soft limits, yes. I’ll try.” My voice is so small. Christian closes his eyes and pulls me into an embrace.

  “Jesus, Ana, you’re so unexpected. You take my breath away.”

  He steps back, and suddenly Ray’s returned, and the volume in the marquee gradually rises and fills my ears. We are not alone. Holy shit, I’ve just agreed to be his sub. Christian smiles at Ray and his eyes are dancing with joy.

  “Annie, should we get some lunch?”

  “Okay.” I blink up at Ray, trying to find my equilibrium. What have you done? My subconscious screams at me. My inner goddess is doing back flips in a routine worthy of a Russian Olympic gymnast.

  “Would you like to join us, Christian?” Ray asks.

  Christian! I stare up at him, imploring him to refuse. I need space to think… what the fuck have I done?

  “Thank you, Mr. Steele, but I have plans. It’s been great to meet you, sir.”

  “Likewise,” Ray responds. “Look after my baby girl.”

  “Oh, I fully intend to, Mr. Steele.”

  They shake hands. I feel sick. Ray has no idea how Christian intends to look after me. Christian takes my hand and raises it to his lips and kisses my knuckles tenderly, his scorching eyes intent on mine.

  “Later, Miss Steele,” he breathes, his voice full of promise.

  My belly curls at the thought… oh my. Hang on… later?

  Ray takes my elbow and leads me toward the entrance to the tent.

  “Seems a solid young man. Well-off, too. You could do a lot worse, Annie. Though why I had to hear about him from Katherine,” he scolds.

  I shrug apologetically.

  “Well, any man who likes and knows his fly-fishing is okay with me.”

  Holy cow – Ray approves. If only he knew.

  Ray drops me back at the house at dusk.

  “Call your mom,” he says.

  “I will. Thanks for coming, Dad.”

  “Wouldn’t have missed it for the world, Annie. You make me so proud.”

  Oh no. I’m not going to get emotional. A huge lump forms in my throat, and I hug him, hard. He puts his arms around me, bemused, and I can’t help it – tears pool in my eyes.

  “Hey, Annie, sweetheart,” Ray croons. “Big old day… eh? Want me to come in and make you some tea?”

  I laugh, in spite of my tears. Tea is always the answer, according to Ray. I remember my mother complaining about him, saying th
at when it came to tea and sympathy, he was always good at the tea, not so hot on the sympathy.

  “No, Dad, I’m good. It’s been so great to see you. I’ll visit real soon once I’m settled in Seattle.”

  “Good luck with the interviews. Let me know how they go.”

  “Sure thing, Dad.”

  “Love you, Annie.”

  “Love you too, Dad.”

  He smiles, his brown eyes warm, glowing, and he climbs back into his car. I wave him off as he drives into the dusk, and I wander listlessly back into the apartment.

  First thing I do is check my cell phone. It needs recharging, so I have to hunt down the charger and plug it in before I can collect my messages. Four missed calls, one voice message, and two texts. Three missed calls from Christian… no messages. One missed call from José and a voice mail from him wishing me all the best for graduation.

  I open the texts.

  *Are you home safe?*

  *Call me*

  They are both from Christian. Why didn’t he call the house? I head into my bedroom and fire up the mean machine.

  From: Christian Grey

  Subject: Tonight

  Date: May 25 2011 23:58

  To: Anastasia Steele

  I hope you made it home in that car of yours.

  Let me know if you’re okay.

  Christian Grey

  CEO, Grey Enterprises Holdings Inc.

  Jeez... why is he so worried about my Beetle? It has given me three years of loyal service, and José has always been on hand to maintain it for me. Christian’s next e-mail is from today.

  From: Christian Grey

  Subject: Soft Limits

  Date: May 26 2011 17:22

  To: Anastasia Steele

  What can I say that I haven’t already?

  Happy to talk these through anytime.

  You looked beautiful today.

  Christian Grey

  CEO, Grey Enterprises Holdings Inc.

  I want to see him. I hit reply

  From: Anastasia Steele

  Subject: Soft Limits

  Date: May 26 2011 19:23

  To: Christian Grey

  I can come over this evening to discuss if you’d like.

  Ana

  From: Christian Grey

  Subject: Soft Limits

  Date: May 26 2011 19:27