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  Christian slips his arms around me, making me jump.

  “Interesting choice of music,” he purrs as he kisses me below my ear. “Your hair smells good.” He nuzzles my hair and inhales deeply.

  Desire uncurls in my belly. No. I shrug out of his embrace.

  “I’m still mad at you.”

  He frowns. “How long are you going to keep this up?” he asks, dragging a hand through his hair.

  I shrug. “At least until I’ve eaten.”

  His lips twitch with amusement. Turning, he picks up the remote control from the counter and switches off the music.

  “Did you put that on your iPod?” I ask.

  He shakes his head, his expression somber, and I know it was her—Ghost Girl.

  “Don’t you think she was trying to tell you something back then?”

  “Well, with hindsight, probably,” he says quietly.

  QED. No empathy. My subconscious crosses her arms and smacks her lips in disgust.

  “Why’s it still on there?”

  “I quite like the song. But if it offends you, I’ll remove it.”

  “No, it’s fine. I like to cook to music.”

  “What would you like to hear?”

  “Surprise me.”

  He heads over to the iPod dock while I go back to my whisking.

  Moments later the heavenly sweet, soulful voice of Nina Simone fills the room. It’s one of Ray’s favorites: “I Put a Spell on You.”

  I flush, turning to gape at Christian. What is he trying to tell me? He put a spell on me a long time ago. Oh my … his look has changed, the levity gone, his eyes darker, intense.

  I watch him, enthralled as slowly, like the predator he is, he stalks me in time to the slow sultry beat of the music. He’s barefoot, wearing just an untucked white shirt, jeans, and a smoldering look.

  Nina sings “you’re mine” as Christian reaches me, his intention clear.

  “Christian, please,” I whisper, the whisk redundant in my hand.

  “Please what?”

  “Don’t do this.”

  “Do what?”

  “This.”

  He’s standing in front of me, gazing down at me.

  “Are you sure?” he breathes and reaching over, he takes the whisk from my hand and places it back in the bowl with the eggs. My heart is in my mouth. I don’t want this—I do want this—badly. He’s so frustrating, so hot and desirable. I tear my gaze away from his spellbinding look.

  “I want you, Anastasia,” he murmurs. “I love and I hate, and I love arguing with you. It’s very new. I need to know that we’re okay. It’s the only way I know how.”

  “My feelings for you haven’t changed,” I whisper.

  His proximity is overwhelming, exhilarating. The familiar pull is there, all my synapses goading me toward him, my inner goddess at her most libidinous. Staring at the patch of hair in the V of his shirt, I bite my lip, helpless, driven by desire—I want to taste him there.

  He’s so close, but he doesn’t touch me. His heat is warming my skin.

  “I’m not going to touch you until you say yes,” he says softly. “But right now, after a really shitty morning, I want to bury myself in you and just forget everything but us.”

  Oh my … Us. A magical combination, a small, potent pronoun that clinches the deal. I raise my head to stare at his beautiful yet serious face.

  “I’m going to touch your face,” I breathe, and see his surprise reflected briefly in his eyes before his acceptance registers.

  Lifting my hand, I caress his cheek, and run my fingertips across his stubble. He closes his eyes and exhales, leaning his face into my touch.

  He leans down slowly, and my lips automatically lift to meet his. He hovers over me.

  “Yes or no, Anastasia?” he whispers.

  “Yes.”

  His mouth softly closes on mine, coaxing, coercing my lips apart as his arms enfold me, pulling me to him. His hand moves up my back, fingers tangling in the hair at the back of my head and tugging gently, while his other hand flattens on my behind, forcing me against him. I moan softly.

  “Mr. Grey.” Taylor coughs, and Christian releases me immediately.

  “Taylor,” he says, his voice frigid.

  I whirl around to see an uncomfortable Taylor standing on the threshold of the great room. Christian and Taylor stare at each other, some unspoken communication passing between them.

  “My study,” Christian snaps, and Taylor walks briskly across the room.

  “Rain check,” Christian whispers to me before following Taylor out of the room.

  I take a deep, steadying breath. Can I not resist him for one minute? I shake my head, disgusted at myself, grateful for Taylor’s interruption, embarrassing though it is.

  I wonder what Taylor has had to interrupt in the past. What’s he seen? I don’t want to think about that. Lunch. I’ll make lunch. I busy myself slicing potatoes. What does Taylor want? My mind races—is this about Leila?

  Ten minutes later, they emerge, just as the omelet is ready. Christian looks preoccupied as he glances at me.

  “I’ll brief them in ten,” he says to Taylor.

  “We’ll be ready,” Taylor answers and leaves the great room.

  I produce two warmed plates and place them on the kitchen island.

  “Lunch?”

  “Please,” Christian says as he perches on one of the barstools. Now he’s watching me carefully.

  “Problem?”

  “No.”

  I scowl. He’s not telling me. I dish out lunch and sit down beside him, resigned to staying in the dark.

  “This is good,” Christian murmurs appreciatively as he takes a bite. “Would you like a glass of wine?”

  “No, thank you.” I need to keep a clear head around you, Grey.

  It does taste good, even though I’m not that hungry. But I eat, knowing Christian will nag if I don’t. Eventually Christian disrupts our brooding silence and switches on the classical piece I heard earlier.

  “What’s this?” I ask.

  “Canteloube, Songs of the Auvergne. This is called ‘Bailero.’ ”

  “It’s lovely. What language is it?”

  “It’s in old French—Occitan, in fact.”

  “You speak French; do you understand it?” Memories of the flawless French he spoke at his parents’ dinner come to mind …

  “Some words, yes.” Christian smiles, visibly relaxing. “My mother had a mantra: ‘musical instrument, foreign language, martial art.’ Elliot speaks Spanish; Mia and I speak French. Elliot plays guitar, I play piano, and Mia the cello.”

  “Wow. And the martial arts?”

  “Elliot does Judo. Mia put her foot down at age twelve and refused.” He smiles at the memory.

  “I wish my mother had been that organized.”

  “Dr. Grace is formidable when it comes to the accomplishments of her children.”

  “She must be very proud of you. I would be.”

  A dark thought flashes across Christian’s face, and he looks momentarily uncomfortable. He regards me warily, as if he’s in uncharted territory.

  “Have you decided what you’ll wear this evening? Or do I need to come and pick something for you?” His tone is suddenly brusque.

  Whoa! He sounds angry. Why? What have I said?

  “Um … not yet. Did you choose all those clothes?”

  “No, Anastasia, I didn’t. I gave a list and your size to a personal shopper at Neiman Marcus. They should fit. Just so that you know, I have ordered additional security for this evening and the next few days. With Leila unpredictable and unaccounted for somewhere on the streets of Seattle, I think it’s a wise precaution. I don’t want you going out unaccompanied. Okay?”

  I blink at him. “Okay.” What happened to I-must-have-you-now Grey?

  “Good. I’m going to brief them. I shouldn’t be long.”

  “They’re here?”

  “Yes.”

  Where?

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sp; Collecting his plate, Christian places it in the sink and disappears from the room. What the hell was that about? He’s like several different people in one body. Isn’t that a symptom of schizophrenia? I must Google that.

  I clear my plate, wash up quickly, and head back up to my bedroom carrying the ANASTASIA ROSE STEELE dossier. Back in the walk-in closet, I pull out the three long evening dresses. Now, which one?

  LYING DOWN ON THE bed, I gaze at my Mac, my iPad, and my BlackBerry. I am overwhelmed with technology. I set about transferring Christian’s playlist from my iPad to the Mac, then fire up Google to surf the Net.

  I’M LYING ACROSS THE bed looking at my Mac as Christian enters.

  “What are you doing?” he inquires softly.

  I panic briefly, wondering if I should let him see the Web site I’m on—Multiple Personality Disorder: The Symptoms.

  Stretching out beside me, he eyes the Web page with amusement.

  “On this site for a reason?” he asks nonchalantly.

  Brusque Christian has gone—playful Christian is back. How the hell am I supposed to keep up with this?

  “Research. Into a difficult personality.” I give him my most deadpan look.

  His lips twitch with a suppressed smile. “A difficult personality?”

  “My own pet project.”

  “I’m a pet project now? A sideline. Science experiment maybe. When I thought I was everything. Miss Steele, you wound me.”

  “How do you know it’s you?”

  “Wild guess.”

  “It’s true that you are the only fucked-up, mercurial, control freak that I know intimately.”

  “I thought I was the only person you know intimately.” He arches a brow.

  I flush. “Yes. That, too.”

  “Have you reached any conclusions yet?”

  I turn and gaze at him. He’s on his side stretched out beside me with his head resting on his elbow, his expression soft, amused.

  “I think you’re in need of intense therapy.”

  He reaches up and gently tucks my hair behind my ears.

  “I think I’m in need of you. Here.” He hands me a tube of lipstick.

  I frown at him, perplexed. It’s harlot red, not my color at all.

  “You want me to wear this?” I squeak.

  He laughs. “No, Anastasia, not unless you want to. Not sure it’s your color,” he finishes dryly.

  He sits up on the bed cross-legged and drags his shirt off over his head. Oh my. “I like your road map idea.”

  I stare at him blankly. Road map?

  “The no-go areas,” he says by way of explanation.

  “Oh. I was kidding.”

  “I’m not.”

  “You want me to draw on you, with lipstick?”

  “It washes off. Eventually.”

  This means I could touch him freely. A small smile of wonder plays on my lips.

  “What about something more permanent, like a Sharpie?”

  “I could get a tattoo.” His eyes are alight with humor.

  Christian Grey with a tat? Marring his lovely body, when it’s marked in so many ways already? No way!

  “No to the tattoo!” I laugh to hide my horror.

  “Lipstick, then.” He grins.

  Shutting the Mac, I push it to the side. This could be fun.

  “Come.” He holds his hands out to me. “Sit on me.”

  I push my flats off my feet, scramble into a sitting position, and crawl over to him. He lies down on the bed but keeps his knees flexed.

  “Lean against my legs.”

  I clamber over him and sit astride as instructed. His eyes are wide and cautious. But he’s amused, too.

  “You seem—enthusiastic for this,” he comments wryly.

  “I’m always eager for information, Mr. Grey, and it means you’ll relax, because I’ll know where the boundaries lie.”

  He shakes his head, as if he can’t quite believe that he’s about to let me draw all over his body.

  “Open the lipstick,” he orders.

  Oh, he’s in überbossy mode, but I don’t care.

  “Give me your hand.”

  I give him my other hand.

  “The one with the lipstick.” He rolls his eyes at me.

  “Are you rolling your eyes at me?”

  “Yep.”

  “That’s very rude, Mr. Grey. I know some people who get positively violent at eye-rolling.”

  “Do you, now?” His tone is ironic.

  I give him my hand with the lipstick, and suddenly he sits up so we are nose to nose.

  “Ready?” he asks in a low, soft murmur that makes everything tighten and tense inside me. Oh, wow.

  “Yes,” I whisper. His proximity is alluring, his toned flesh close, his Christian-smell mixed with my body wash. He guides my hand up to the curve of his shoulder.

  “Press down,” he breathes, and my mouth goes dry as he directs my hand down, from the top of his shoulder, around his arm socket then down the side of his chest. The lipstick leaves a broad, livid red streak in its wake. He stops at the bottom of his rib cage, and then directs me across his stomach. He tenses and stares, seemingly impassive, into my eyes, but beneath his careful blank look, I see his restraint.

  His aversion is held in strict check, the line of his jaw is strained, and there’s tension around his eyes. Midway across his stomach he murmurs, “And up the other side.” He releases my hand.

  I mirror the line I’ve drawn on his left side. The trust he’s giving me is heady, but tempered by the fact that I can I count his pain. Seven small, round white scars dot his chest, and it’s deep, dark purgatory to see this hideous, evil desecration of his beautiful body. Who would do this to a child?

  “There, done,” I whisper, containing my emotion.

  “No, you’re not,” he replies and traces a line with his long index finger around the base of his neck. I follow the line of his finger with a scarlet streak. Finishing, I gaze into the gray depths of his eyes.

  “Now my back,” he murmurs. He shifts so I have to climb off him, then he turns around on the bed and sits cross-legged with his back to me.

  “Follow the line from my chest, all the way around to the other side.” His voice is low and husky.

  I do as he says until a crimson line runs across the middle of his back, and as I do, I count more scars marring his beautiful body. Nine in all.

  Holy fuck. I have to fight the overwhelming need to kiss each one and stop the tears pooling in my eyes. What kind of animal would do this? His head is down, and his body tense as I complete the circuit around his back.

  “Around your neck, too?” I whisper.

  He nods, and I draw another line joining the first around the base of his neck beneath his hair.

  “Finished,” I murmur, and it looks like he’s wearing a bizarre skin-colored vest with a harlot-red trim.

  His shoulders slump as he relaxes, and he turns slowly to face me once again.

  “Those are the boundaries,” he says quietly, his eyes dark and pupils dilated … from fear? From lust? I want to hurl myself at him, but I restrain myself and gaze at him in wonder.

  “I can live with those. Right now I want to launch myself at you,” I whisper.

  He gives me a wicked smile and holds out his hands, a silent gesture of consent.

  “Well, Miss Steele, I’m all yours.”

  I squeal with childish delight and catapult myself into his arms, knocking him flat. He twists, letting out a boyish laugh filled with relief that the ordeal is over. Somehow, I end up beneath him on the bed.

  “Now, about that rain check,” he breathes and his mouth claims mine once more.

  CHAPTER SIX

  * * *

  My hands fist in his hair while my mouth is feverish against Christian’s, consuming him, relishing the feel of his tongue against mine. And he’s the same, devouring me. It’s heavenly.

  Suddenly he drags me up and grasps the hem of my T-shirt, whipping it over m
y head and throwing it on the floor.

  “I want to feel you,” he says greedily against my mouth as his hands move behind me to undo my bra. In one smooth move, it’s off and he pitches it aside.

  He pushes me back down onto the bed, pressing me into the mattress, and his mouth and hand move to my breasts. My fingers curl into his hair as he takes one of my nipples between his lips and tugs hard.

  I cry out as the sensation sweeps through my body, spikes, and tightens all the muscles around my groin.

  “Yes, baby, let me hear you,” he murmurs against my overheated skin.

  Boy, I want him inside me now. With his mouth he toys with my nipple, pulling at it, making me squirm and writhe and yearn for him. I sense his longing mixed with—what? Veneration. It’s as if he’s worshipping me.

  He teases me with his fingers, my nipple growing hard and elongating under his skillful touch. His hand moves to my jeans, and he deftly undoes the button, tugs the zipper down, and slips his hand inside my panties, sliding his fingers against my sex.

  His breath hisses out as his finger glides into me. I push my pelvis up into the heel of his hand, and he responds, rubbing against me.

  “Oh, baby,” he breathes as he hovers over me, staring intently into my eyes. “You’re so wet.” His voice is filled with wonder.

  “I want you,” I murmur.

  His mouth joins with mine again, and I feel his hungry desperation, his need for me.

  This is new—it’s never been like this except perhaps when I came back from Georgia—and his words from earlier drift back to me … I need to know we’re okay. This is the only way I know how.

  The thought unravels me. To know that I have such an effect on him, that I can offer him solace, doing this … He sits up, grasps the hem of my jeans, and tugs them off, followed by my panties.

  Keeping his eyes fixed on mine, he stands, takes a foil packet out of his pocket, and tosses it at me, then removes his jeans and boxers in one swift motion.

  I rip the packet open greedily, and when he lies beside me again, I slowly roll the condom onto him. He grabs both my hands and rolls on to his back.

  “You. On top,” he orders, pulling me astride him. “I want to see you.”

  Oh.

  He guides me, and hesitantly I ease myself down onto him. He closes his eyes and flexes his hips to meet me, filling me, stretching me, his mouth forming a perfect O as he exhales.