Fifty Shades Freed: Book Three of the Fifty Shades Trilogy Read online

  “And we could, if you stopped working . . .”

  I roll my eyes and he tightens his arms around me and grins into my neck.

  “Are you rolling your eyes at me Mrs. Grey?” His threat is implicit but sensual, making me squirm, but as we’re in the middle of the meadow with the kids nearby, I ignore his invitation.

  “Grey Publishing has an author on the New York Times Best Sellers—Boyce Fox’s sales are phenomenal, the e-book side of our business has exploded, and I finally have the team I want around me.”

  “And you’re making money in these difficult times,” Christian adds, his voice reflecting his pride. “But . . . I like you barefoot and pregnant and in my kitchen.”

  I lean back so I can see his face. He gazes down at me, eyes bright.

  “I like that, too,” I murmur, and he kisses me, his hands still spread across my bump.

  Seeing he’s in a good mood, I decide to broach a delicate subject. “Have you thought any more about my suggestion?”

  He stills. “Ana, the answer is no.”

  “But Ella is such a lovely name.”

  “I am not naming my daughter after my mother. No. End of discussion.”

  “Are you sure?”

  “Yes.” Grasping my chin, he gazes earnestly down at me, radiating exasperation. “Ana, give it up. I don’t want my daughter tainted by my past.”

  “Okay. I’m sorry.” Shit . . . I don’t want to anger him.

  “That’s better. Stop trying to fix it,” he mutters. “You got me to admit I loved her, you dragged me to her grave. Enough.”

  Oh no. I twist in his lap to straddle him and grasp his head in my hands.

  “I’m sorry. Really. Don’t be angry with me, please.” I kiss him, then kiss the corner of his mouth. After a beat, he points to the other corner, and I smile and kiss it. He points to his nose. I kiss that. He grins and places his hands on my backside.

  “Oh, Mrs. Grey—what am I going to do with you?”

  “I’m sure you’ll think of something,” I murmur. He grins and, twisting suddenly, he pushes me down onto the blanket.

  “How about I do it now?” he whispers with a salacious smile.

  “Christian!” I gasp.

  Suddenly there’s a high-pitched cry from Ted. Christian leaps to his feet with a panther’s easy grace and races toward the source of the sound. I follow at a more leisurely pace. Secretly, I’m not as concerned as Christian—it was not a cry that would make me take the stairs two at a time to find out what’s wrong.

  Christian swings Teddy up into his arms. Our little boy is crying inconsolably and pointing to the ground, where the remains of his popsicle lie in a soggy mess, melting into the grass.

  “He dropped it,” Sophie says, sadly. “He could have had mine, but I’ve finished it.”

  “Oh, Sophie darling, don’t worry.” I stroke her hair.

  “Mommy!” Ted wails, holding his hands out to me. Christian reluctantly lets him go as I reach for him.

  “There, there.”

  “Pop,” he sobs.

  “I know, baby boy. We’ll go see Mrs. Taylor and get another one.” I kiss his head . . . oh, he smells so good. He smells of my baby boy.

  “Pop,” he sniffs. I take his hand and kiss his sticky fingers.

  “I can taste your popsicle here on your fingers.”

  Ted stops crying and examines his hand.

  “Put your fingers in your mouth.”

  He does. “Pop!”

  “Yes. Popsicle.”

  He grins. My mercurial little boy, just like his dad. Well, at least he has an excuse—he’s only two.

  “Shall we go see Mrs. Taylor?” He nods, smiling his beautiful baby smile. “Will you let Daddy carry you?” He shakes his head and wraps his arms around my neck, hugging me tightly, his face pressed against my throat.

  “I think Daddy wants to taste popsicle, too,” I whisper in Ted’s little ear. Ted frowns at me, then looks at his hand and holds it out to Christian. Christian smiles and puts Ted’s fingers in his mouth.

  “Hmm . . . tasty.”

  Ted giggles and reaches up, wanting Christian to hold him. Christian grins at me and takes Ted in his arms, settling him on his hip.

  “Sophie, where’s Gail?”

  “She was in the big house.”

  I glance at Christian. His smile has turned bittersweet, and I wonder what he’s thinking.

  “You’re so good with him,” he murmurs.

  “This little one?” I ruffle Ted’s hair. “It’s only because I have the measure of you Grey men.” I smirk at my husband.

  He laughs. “Yes, you do, Mrs. Grey.”

  Teddy squirms out of Christian’s hold. Now he wants to walk, my stubborn little man. I take one of his hands, and his dad takes the other, and together we swing Teddy between us all the way back to the house, Sophie skipping along in front of us.

  I wave to Taylor who, on a rare day-off, is outside the garage, dressed in jeans and a wife-beater, as he tinkers with an old motorbike.

  I pause outside the door to Ted’s room and listen as Christian reads to Ted. “I am the Lorax! I speak for the trees . . .”1

  When I peek in, Teddy is fast asleep while Christian continues to read. He glances up when I open the door and closes the book. He puts his finger to his lips and switches on the baby monitor beside Ted’s crib. He adjusts Ted’s bedclothes, strokes his cheek, then straightens up, and tiptoes over to me without making a sound. It’s hard not to giggle at him.

  Out in the hallway, Christian pulls me into his embrace. “God, I love him, but it’s great when he’s asleep,” he murmurs against my lips.

  “I couldn’t agree with you more.”

  He gazes down at me, eyes soft. “I can hardly believe he’s been with us for two years.”

  “I know.” I kiss him, and for a moment, I’m transported back to Teddy’s birth: the emergency caesarian, Christian’s crippling anxiety, Dr. Greene’s no-nonsense calm when my Little Blip was in distress. I shudder inwardly at the memory.

  “Mrs. Grey, you’ve been in labor for fifteen hours now. Your contractions have slowed in spite of the Pitocin. We need to do a C-section—the baby is in distress.” Dr. Greene is adamant.

  “About fucking time!” Christian growls at her. Dr. Greene ignores him.

  “Christian, quiet.” I squeeze his hand. My voice is low and weak and everything is fuzzy—the walls, the machines, the green-gowned people . . . I just want to go to sleep. But I have something important to do first . . . Oh yes. “I wanted to push him out myself.”

  “Mrs. Grey, please. C-section.”

  “Please, Ana,” Christian pleads.

  “Can I sleep then?”

  “Yes, baby, yes.” It’s almost a sob, and Christian kisses my forehead.

  “I want to see the Lil’ Blip.”

  “You will.”

  “Okay,” I whisper.

  “Finally,” Dr. Greene mutters. “Nurse, page the anesthesiologist. Dr. Miller, prep for a C-section. Mrs. Grey, we are going to move you to the OR.”

  “Move?” Christian and I speak at once.

  “Yes. Now.”

  And suddenly we’re moving—quickly, the lights on the ceiling blurring into one long bright strip as I’m whisked across the corridor.

  “Mr. Grey, you’ll need to change into scrubs.”

  “What?”

  “Now, Mr. Grey.”

  He squeezes my hand and releases me.

  “Christian,” I call, panic setting in.

  We are through another set of doors, and in no time a nurse is setting up a screen across my chest. The door opens and closes, and there’s so many people in the room. It’s so loud . . . I want to go home.

  “Christian?” I search the faces in the room for my husband.

  “He’ll be with you in a moment, Mrs. Grey.”

  A moment later, he’s beside me, in blue scrubs, and I reach for his hand.

  “I’m frightened,” I whisper
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  “No, baby, no. I’m here. Don’t be frightened. Not my strong Ana.” He kisses my forehead, and I can tell by the tone of his voice that something’s wrong.

  “What is it?”

  “What?”

  “What’s wrong?”

  “Nothing’s wrong. Everything’s fine. Baby, you’re just exhausted.” His eyes burn with fear.

  “Mrs. Grey, the anesthesiologist is here. He’s going to adjust your epidural, and then we can proceed.”

  “She’s having another contraction.”

  Everything tightens like a steel band around my belly. Shit! I crush Christian’s hand as I ride it out. This is what’s tiring—enduring this pain. I am so tired. I can feel the numbing liquid spread . . . spread down. I concentrate on Christian’s face. On the furrow between his brows. He’s tense. He’s worried. Why is he worried?

  “Can you feel this, Mrs. Grey?” Dr. Greene’s disembodied voice is coming from behind the curtain.

  “Feel what?”

  “You can’t feel it.”

  “No.”

  “Good. Dr. Miller, let’s go.”

  “You’re doing well, Ana.”

  Christian is pale. There is sweat on his brow. He’s scared. Don’t be scared, Christian. Don’t be scared.

  “I love you,” I whisper.

  “Oh, Ana,” he sobs. “I love you, too, so much.”

  I feel a strange pulling deep inside. Like nothing I’ve felt before. Christian looks over the screen and blanches, but stares, fascinated.

  “What’s happening?”

  “Suction! Good . . .”

  Suddenly, there’s a piercing angry cry.

  “You have a boy, Mrs. Grey. Check his Apgar.”

  “Apgar is nine.”

  “Can I see him?” I gasp.

  Christian disappears from view for a second and reappears a moment later, holding my son, swathed in blue. His face is pink, and covered in white mush and blood. My baby. My Blip . . . Theodore Raymond Grey.

  When I glance at Christian, he has tears in his eyes.

  “Here’s your son, Mrs. Grey,” he whispers, his voice strained and hoarse.

  “Our son,” I breathe. “He’s beautiful.”

  “He is,” Christian says and plants a kiss on our beautiful boy’s forehead beneath a shock of dark hair. Theodore Raymond Grey is oblivious. Eyes closed, his earlier crying forgotten, he’s asleep. He is the most beautiful sight I have ever seen. So beautiful, I begin to weep.

  “Thank you, Ana,” Christian whispers, and there are tears in his eyes too.

  “What is it?” Christian tilts my chin back.

  “I was just remembering Ted’s birth.”

  Christian blanches and cups my belly.

  “I am not going through that again. Elective caesarian this time.”

  “Christian, I—”

  “No, Ana. You nearly fucking died last time. No.”

  “I did not nearly die.”

  “No.” He’s emphatic and not to be argued with, but as he gazes down at me, his eyes soften. “I like the name Phoebe,” he whispers, and runs his nose down mine.

  “Phoebe Grey? Phoebe . . . Yes. I like that, too.” I grin up at him.

  “Good. I want to set up Ted’s present.” He takes my hand, and we head downstairs. His excitement radiates off him; Christian has been waiting for this moment all day.

  “Do you think he’ll like it?” His apprehensive gaze meets mine.

  “He’ll love it. For about two minutes. Christian, he’s only two.”

  Christian has finished setting up the wooden train set he bought Teddy for his birthday. He’s had Barney at the office convert two of the little engines to run on solar power like the helicopter I gave Christian a few years ago. Christian seems anxious for the sun to rise. I suspect that’s because he wants to play with the train set himself. The layout covers most of the stone floor of our outdoor room.

  Tomorrow we will have a family party for Ted. Ray and José will be coming and all the Grey’s, including Ted’s new cousin Ava, Kate and Elliot’s two-month-old daughter. I look forward to catching up with Kate and seeing how motherhood is agreeing with her.

  I gaze up at the view as the sun sinks behind the Olympic Peninsula. It’s everything Christian promised it would be, and I get the same joyful thrill seeing it now as I did the first time. It’s simply stunning: twilight over the Sound. Christian pulls me into his arms.

  “It’s quite a view.”

  “It is,” Christian answers, and when I turn to look at him, he’s gazing at me. He plants a soft kiss on my lips. “It’s a beautiful view,” he murmurs. “My favorite.”

  “It’s home.”

  He grins and kisses me again. “I love you, Mrs. Grey.”

  “I love you, too, Christian. Always.”

  The End

  1 Dr. Seuss. The Lorax. New York: Random House, 1971.

  I am aware that today you cannot walk into an American bank and withdraw five million dollars. The conversation Ana did not hear went like this:

  “Troy Whelan.”

  “It’s Christian Grey. I’ve spoken to my wife. Give her the money. Whatever she wants.”

  “Mr. Grey, I can’t . . .”

  “Liquidate five million of my assets. Off the top of my head: Georges, PKC, Atlantis Corps, Ferris and Umatic. A million from each.”

  “Mr. Grey, this is highly irregular. I’ll have to consult with Mr. Forlines.”

  “I’m playing golf with him next week,” I hiss. “Just fucking do it, Whelan. Find a way, or I’ll close all the accounts and move GEH’s business elsewhere. Understand?”

  He’s silent on the end of the phone.

  “We’ll sort the fucking paperwork out later,” I add, more conciliatory.

  “Yes, Mr. Grey.”

  My sweater is scratchy and smells of new. Everything is new. I have a new mommy. She is a doctor. She has a tetscope that I can stick in my ears and hear my heart. She is kind and smiles. She smiles all the time. Her teeth are small and white.

  “Do you want to help me decorate the tree, Christian?”

  There is a big tree in the room with the big couches. A big tree. I have seen these before. But in stores. Not inside where the couches are. My new house has lots of couches. Not one couch. Not one brown sticky couch.

  “Here, look.”

  My new mommy shows me a box, and it’s full of balls. Lots of pretty shiny balls.

  “These are ornaments for the tree.”

  Orn-a-ments. Orn-a-ments. My head says the word. Orn-a-ments.

  “And these—” she stops and pulls out a string with little flowers on them. “These are the lights. Lights first, and then we can trim the tree.” She reaches down and puts her fingers in my hair. I go very still. But I like her fingers in my hair. I like to be near New Mommy. She smells good. Clean. And she only touches my hair.

  “Mom!”

  He’s calling. Lelliot. He’s big and loud. Very loud. He talks. All the time. I don’t talk at all. I have no words. I have words in my head.

  “Elliot, darling, we’re in the sitting room.”

  He runs in. He has been to school. He has a picture. A picture he has drawn for my new mommy. She is Lelliot’s mommy, too. She kneels down and hugs him and looks at the picture. It is a house with a mommy and a daddy and a Lelliot and a Christian. Christian is very small in Lelliot’s picture. Lelliot is big. He has a big smile and Christian has a sad face.

  Daddy is here, too. He walks toward Mommy. I hold my blankie tight. He kisses New Mommy and New Mommy isn’t frightened. She smiles. She kisses him back. I squeeze my blankie.

  “Hello, Christian.” Daddy has a deep soft voice. I like his voice. He is never loud. He does not shout. He does not shout like . . . He reads books to me when I go to bed. He reads about a cat and a hat and green eggs and ham. I have never seen green eggs. Daddy bends down so he is small.

  “What did you do today?”

  I show him the tree.
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  “You bought a tree? A Christmas tree?”

  I say yes with my head.

  “It’s a beautiful tree. You and Mommy chose very well. It’s an important job choosing the right tree.”

  He pats my hair, too, and I go very still and hold my blankie tightly. Daddy doesn’t hurt me.

  “Daddy, look at my picture.” Lelliot is mad when Daddy talks to me. Lelliot is mad at me. I smack Lelliot when he is mad at me. New Mommy is mad at me if I do. Lelliot does not smack me. Lelliot is scared of me.

  The lights on the tree are pretty.

  “Here, let me show you. The hook goes through the little eye, and then you can hang it on the tree.” Mommy puts the red orn-a . . . orn-a-ment on the tree.

  “You try with this little bell.”

  The little bell rings. I shake it. The sound is a happy sound. I shake it again. Mommy smiles. A big smile. A special smile for me.

  “You like the bell, Christian?”

  I say yes with my head and shake the bell once more, and it tinkles happily.

  “You have a lovely smile, darling boy.” Mommy blinks and wipes her hand on her eyes. She strokes my hair. “I love to see your smile.” Her hand moves to my shoulder. No. I step back and squeeze my blankie. Mommy looks sad and then happy. She strokes my hair.

  “Shall we put the bell on the tree?”

  My head says yes.

  “Christian, you must tell me when you’re hungry. You can do that. You can take Mommy’s hand and lead Mommy to the kitchen and point.” She points her long finger at me. Her nail is shiny and pink. It is pretty. But I don’t know if my new mommy is mad or not. I have finished all my dinner. Macaroni and cheese. It tastes good.

  “I don’t want you to be hungry, darling. Okay? Now would you like some ice cream?”

  My head says yes! Mommy smiles at me. I like her smiles. They are better than macaroni and cheese.

  The tree is pretty. I stand and look at it and hug my blankie. The lights twinkle and are all different colors, and the orn-a-ments are all different colors. I like the blue ones. And on the top of the tree is a big star. Daddy held Lelliot up, and Lelliot put the star on the tree. Lelliot likes putting the star on the tree. I want to put the star on the tree . . . but I don’t want Daddy to hold me up high. I don’t want him to hold me. The star is sparkly and bright.