Grey: Fifty Shades of Grey as Told by Christian Read online

  Her eyes widen.

  Oh. Didn’t I mention that?

  Why would I mention that? It’s nothing to do with her.

  “Yes, we’re business partners. The sex is over between us. It has been for years.”

  “Why did your relationship end?”

  “Her husband found out. Can we talk about this some other time—somewhere more private?”

  “I don’t think you’ll ever convince me that she’s not some kind of pedophile.”

  Fucking hell, Ana! Enough is enough!

  “I don’t think of her that way. I never have. Now that’s enough!” I growl.

  “Did you love her?”

  What?

  “How are you two getting on?” Carla is back. Ana forces a smile that makes my stomach churn.

  “Fine, Mom.”

  Did I love Elena?

  I take a sip of my drink. I fucking worshipped her…but did I love her? What a ridiculous question. I know nothing about romantic love. That’s the hearts-and-flowers shit she wants. The nineteenth-century novels she’s read have filled her head with nonsense.

  I’ve had enough.

  “Well, ladies, I shall leave you to your evening. Please, put these drinks on my tab, room number 612. I’ll call you in the morning, Anastasia. Until tomorrow, Carla.”

  “Oh, it’s so nice to hear someone use your full name.”

  “Beautiful name for a beautiful girl.” I shake Carla’s hand, sincere about the compliment but not the smile on my face.

  Ana is quiet, imploring me with a look that I ignore. I kiss her cheek. “Laters, baby,” I murmur in her ear, then turn and walk through the bar and back down to my room.

  That girl provokes me like no one has before.

  And she’s pissed at me; maybe she has PMS. She said her period was due this week.

  I burst into my room, slam the door, and head straight for the balcony. It’s warm outside, and I take a deep breath, inhaling the pungent salty scent of the river. Night has fallen, and the river is inky black, like the sky…like my mood. I didn’t even get to discuss gliding tomorrow. I rest my hands on the balcony rail. The lights on the shore and the bridge improve the view…but not my temperament.

  Why am I defending a relationship that began when Ana was still in fourth grade? It’s none of her business. Yes, it was unconventional. But that’s all.

  I run both hands through my hair. This trip isn’t working out how I expected, at all. Perhaps it was a mistake to come down here. And to think it was Elena who encouraged me to make the trip.

  My phone buzzes, and I hope it’s Ana. It’s Ros.

  “Yes,” I snap.

  “Jeez, Christian. Am I interrupting something?”

  “No. Sorry. What’s up?” Calm down, Grey.

  “I thought I’d update you on my conversation with Marco. But if now is a bad time, I’ll call back in the morning.”

  “No, it’s fine.”

  There’s a knock on the door. “Hang on, Ros.” I open it, expecting Taylor or someone from housekeeping to do turndown—but it’s Ana, standing in the corridor, looking bashful and beautiful.

  She’s here.

  Opening the door wider, I motion her in.

  “All the redundancy packages concluded?” I ask Ros, without taking my eyes off Ana.

  “Yes.”

  Ana walks into the room, watching me warily, her lips parted and moist, her eyes darkening. What’s this? A change of heart? I know that look. It’s desire. She wants me. And I want her, too, especially after our spat in the bar.

  Why else would she be here?

  “And the cost?” I question Ros.

  “Nearly two million.”

  I whistle through my teeth. “That was one expensive mistake.”

  “GEH gets to exploit the fiber-optic division.” She’s right. This was one of our goals.

  “And Lucas?” I ask.

  “He reacted badly.”

  I open the minibar and gesture to Ana to help herself. Leaving her there, I stroll into the bedroom.

  “What did he do?”

  “He threw a fit.”

  In the bathroom I turn on the faucet to run water into the huge sunken marble bath and add some scented bath oil. There’s room for six people in here.

  “The majority of that money is for him,” I remind Ros as I check the water temperature. “And he has the buyout price for the company. He can always start again.”

  I turn to leave, but as an afterthought I decide to light the various candles that are artfully arranged on the stone bench. Lit candles count as “more,” don’t they?

  “Well, he’s threatening lawyers, though I don’t understand why. We’re bulletproof on this. Is that water I hear?” Ros asks.

  “Yeah, I’m running a bath.”

  “Oh? Do you want me to go?”

  “No. Anything else?”

  “Yes, Fred wants to talk to you.”

  “Really?”

  “He’s gone over Barney’s new design.”

  As I wander back into the living room, I acknowledge Barney’s design solution for the tablet and ask her to have Andrea send me the revised schematics. Ana has retrieved a bottle of orange juice.

  “Is this your new management style: not being here?” Ros asks. I laugh out loud, but mainly at Ana’s choice of beverage. Wise woman. And I tell Ros that I won’t be back in the office until Friday.

  “Are you seriously going to change your mind about Detroit?”

  “There’s a plot of land here that I’m interested in.”

  “Is Bill aware of this?” Ros is snippy.

  “Yeah, get Bill to call.”

  “Will do. Did you get a drink with the Savannah people this evening?”

  I tell her that I’ll be seeing them tomorrow. I’m more conciliatory and mindful of my tone, as this is a hot button for Ros. “I want to see what Georgia will offer if we move in.” I take a glass off the shelf, hand it to Ana, and point to the ice bucket.

  “If their incentives are attractive enough,” I continue, “I think we should consider it, though I’m not sure about the damned heat here.”

  Ana pours her drink.

  “It’s late to be changing your mind on this, Christian. But it might give us some leverage with Detroit,” Ros muses.

  “I agree, Detroit has its advantages, too, and it’s cooler.”

  But there are too many ghosts there for me.

  “Get Bill to call. Tomorrow.” It’s late now and I have a visitor. “Not too early,” I warn. Ros says good night and I hang up.

  Ana eyes me with reserve as I drink her in. Her lush hair falls over small shoulders, framing her lovely, pensive face. “You didn’t answer my question,” she murmurs.

  “No. I didn’t.”

  “No, you didn’t answer my question, or no, you didn’t love her?”

  She’s not going to let this go. I lean against the wall and fold my arms so I don’t pull her into them. “What are you doing here, Anastasia?”

  “I’ve just told you.”

  Put her out of her misery, Grey.

  “No. I didn’t love her.”

  Her shoulders relax and her face softens. It’s what she wanted to hear.

  “You’re quite the green-eyed goddess, Anastasia. Who would have thought?”

  But are you my green-eyed goddess?

  “Are you making fun of me, Mr. Grey?”

  “I wouldn’t dare,” I retort.

  “Oh, I think you would, and I think you do—often.” She smirks and sinks perfect teeth into her lip.

  She’s doing that on purpose.

  “Please stop biting your lip. You’re in my room, I haven’t set eyes on you for nearly three days, and I’ve flown a long way to see you.” I need to
know that we’re okay, the only way I know how. I want to fuck her, hard.

  My phone buzzes, but I switch it off without checking the caller. Whoever it is can wait.

  I step toward her. “I want you, Anastasia. Now. And you want me. That’s why you’re here.”

  “I really did want to know,” she says.

  “Well, now that you do, are you coming or going?” I ask, standing in front of her.

  “Coming,” she says, her eyes on mine.

  “Oh, I hope so.” I stare down at her, marveling as her irises darken.

  She wants me.

  “You were so mad at me,” I whisper.

  It’s still novel, dealing with her anger, taking her feelings into account.

  “Yes.”

  “I don’t remember anyone but my family ever being mad at me. I like it.” Gently I touch her face with the tips of my fingers and run them down to her chin. She closes her eyes and angles her cheek to my touch. Leaning down, I run my nose along her naked shoulder, up to her ear, inhaling her sweet scent as desire floods my body. My fingers move to her nape and into her hair.

  “We should talk,” she whispers.

  “Later.”

  “There’s so much I want to say.”

  “Me, too.” I kiss the spot beneath her ear and tug her hair, pulling back her head to expose her throat. My teeth and lips graze her chin and down her neck as my body hums with need. “I want you,” I whisper, as I kiss the spot where her pulse beats beneath her skin. She moans and holds my arms. I tense for a moment, but the darkness stays dormant.

  “Are you bleeding?” I ask between kisses.

  She stills. “Yes,” she says.

  “Do you have cramps?”

  “No.” Her voice is quiet yet vehement with embarrassment.

  I stop kissing her and look down into her eyes. Why is she embarrassed? It’s her body. “Did you take your pill?”

  “Yes,” she answers.

  Good. “Let’s go have a bath.”

  In the over-the-top bathroom I release Ana’s hand. The atmosphere is hot and humid, steam gently rising above the foam. In this heat I’m overdressed, my linen shirt and jeans sticking to my skin.

  Ana watches me, her skin dewy from the humidity.

  “Do you have a hair tie?” I ask. Her hair will start clinging to her face. She pulls out a hair elastic from her jeans pocket.

  “Put your hair up,” I tell her, and watch as she follows my command with quick, efficient grace.

  Good girl. No more arguing.

  A few strands escape from her ponytail, but she looks lovely. I turn off the faucet and, taking her hand, guide her into the other part of the bathroom, where a large gilded mirror hangs over two sinks set in marble. My eyes on hers in the mirror, I stand behind her and ask her to take off her sandals. Hastily she removes them and lets them drop to the floor.

  “Lift up your arms,” I whisper. Grasping the hem of her pretty top, I peel it off and over her head, freeing her breasts. Reaching around, I undo the top button and the zipper of her jeans.

  “I’m going to have you in the bathroom, Anastasia.” Her eyes stray to my mouth and she licks her lips. Under the soft light her pupils gleam with excitement. Bending down, I drop tender kisses on her neck, hook my thumbs into the waistband of her jeans, and slowly peel them down over her fine ass, catching her panties in my hands on the way down. Kneeling behind her, I ease them down her legs, to her feet. “Step out of your jeans,” I order. Grabbing the edge of the sink, she obliges; now she’s naked and I’m face-to-face with her ass. I pop her jeans, panties, and top onto a white stool beneath the sink and contemplate all the things I could do to that ass. I notice a blue string between her legs; her tampon is still in place, so I settle for kissing and nipping her behind gently before standing up. Our eyes connect in the mirror once more and I splay my hand out over her smooth, flat belly.

  “Look at you. You are so beautiful. See how you feel.” Her breathing quickens as I take both her hands in mine and spread her fingers on her belly beneath my outstretched hands.

  “Feel how soft your skin is,” I whisper. Gently I guide her hands across her torso in a wide sweeping circle, then travel them up to her breasts.

  “Feel how full your breasts are.” I hold her hands beneath her breasts so she’s cupping them. Gently I tease her nipples with my thumbs. She moans and bows her back, pressing her breasts into our conjoined hands. Trapping her nipples between her thumbs and mine, I tug gently again and again, and take pleasure watching them harden and lengthen in response.

  Like a certain part of my anatomy.

  She closes her eyes and wriggles against me, brushing her behind over my erection. She moans, her head against my shoulder.

  “That’s right, baby,” I murmur against her neck, enjoying her body coming alive beneath her touch. I guide her hands down her front to her hips, then in toward her pubic hair. I push my leg between hers and with my foot widen her stance as I guide her hands over her vulva, one hand at a time, over and over, pressing her fingers over her clitoris again and again.

  She groans and I watch her writhe against me in the mirror.

  Lord, she’s a goddess.

  “Look at you glow, Anastasia.” I kiss and nip her neck and her shoulder, then I let go, leaving her hanging, and she opens her eyes as I step back.

  “Carry on,” I tell her, wondering what she’ll do.

  She falters for a moment, then rubs herself with one hand, but not nearly as enthusiastically.

  Oh, this will never do.

  Quickly I strip off my sticky shirt, jeans, and underwear, freeing my erection.

  “You’d rather I do this?” I ask, her eyes blazing at mine in the mirror.

  “Oh yes, please,” she says, a desperate, needy edge to her voice. I wrap my arms around her, my front against her back, my cock resting in the cleft of her fine, fine ass. I take her hands in mine once more, guiding them over her clitoris, one at a time, again and again, pressing, stroking, and arousing her. She whimpers as I suck and nip at her nape. Her legs begin to tremble. Abruptly I spin her around so she’s facing me. I grasp her wrists in one of my hands, holding them behind her back, while I tug on her ponytail with the other, bringing her lips up to mine. I kiss her, consuming her mouth, reveling in the taste of her: orange juice and sweet, sweet Ana. Her breathing is harsh, like mine.

  “When did you start your period, Anastasia?”

  I want to fuck you without a condom.

  “Yesterday,” she breathes.

  “Good.” I step back and spin her around. “Hold on to the sink,” I command. Grasping her hips, I lift her and pull her backward so she’s bent over. My hand glides down her ass to the blue string, and I tug out the tampon, which I toss in the toilet. She gasps, shocked, I think, but I grab my cock and slide into her quickly.

  My breath whistles between my teeth.

  Fuck. She feels good. So good. Skin against skin.

  I edge back, then sink into her once more, slowly, feeling every precious, slick inch of her. She groans and pushes against me.

  Oh yes, Ana.

  She tightens her grip on the marble as I pick up speed, and I grasp her hips, building…building, then hammering into her. Claiming her. Possessing her.

  Don’t be jealous, Ana. I want only you.

  You.

  You.

  My fingers find her clitoris and I tease her, caress her, and stimulate her so that her legs begin to tremble once more. “That’s right, baby,” I murmur, my voice hoarse as I pound into her with a punishing I-own-you rhythm.

  Don’t argue with me. Don’t fight with me.

  Her legs stiffen as I grind into her and her body starts to quiver. Suddenly she cries out as her orgasm seizes her, taking me with her.

  “Oh, Ana,” I breathe as I let go, the worl
d blurring, and I come inside her.

  Fuck.

  “Oh, baby, will I ever get enough of you?” I whisper as I sink onto her.

  Slowly I descend to the floor, bringing her with me and wrapping my arms around her. She sits, her head against my shoulder, still panting.

  Sweet Lord.

  Was it ever like this?

  I kiss her hair and she calms, her eyes closed, her breathing slowly returning to normal as I hold her. We’re both sweaty and hot in a humid bathroom, but I don’t want to be anywhere else.

  She shifts. “I’m bleeding,” she says.

  “Doesn’t bother me.” I don’t want to let her go.

  “I noticed.” Her tone is dry.

  “Does it bother you?” It shouldn’t. It’s natural. I’ve known only one woman who was squeamish about period sex, but I wouldn’t take any of that crap from her.

  “No, not at all.” Ana peers up at me with clear blue eyes.

  “Good. Let’s have a bath.” I free her and her brows knit for a moment while she stares at my chest. Her rosy face loses some of its color, and clouded eyes meet mine.

  “What is it?” I ask, alarmed by her expression.

  “Your scars. They’re not from chicken pox.”

  “No, they’re not.” My tone is arctic.

  I do not want to talk about this.

  Standing, I hold my hand out to her and pull her to her feet. Her eyes are wide with horror.

  It’ll be pity next.

  “Don’t look at me like that,” I warn, and release her hand.

  I don’t want your fucking pity, Ana. Don’t go there.

  She studies her hand, suitably chastened, I hope.

  “Did she do that?” Her voice is almost inaudible.

  I scowl at her, saying nothing, as I try to contain my sudden rage. My silence compels her to look at me.

  “She?” I snarl. “Mrs. Robinson?”

  Ana pales at my tone.

  “She’s not an animal, Anastasia. Of course she didn’t. I don’t understand why you feel you have to demonize her.”