Fifty Shades Trilogy 01 - Fifty Shades of Grey Read online

  “Ana,” he smiles his dazzling toothy all-Hispanic-American smile, and I can’t be angry with him anymore.

  “Hi, José.” I hug him. “I’m starving. I’ll just let Mrs. Clayton know I’m going for lunch.”

  As we stroll to the local coffee shop, I slip my arm through José’s. I’m so grateful for his – normality. Someone I know and understand.

  “Hey, Ana,” he murmurs. “You’ve really forgiven me?”

  “José, you know I can never stay mad at you for long.”

  He grins.

  I can’t wait to get home. The lure of e-mailing Christian, and maybe I can begin my research project. Kate is out somewhere, so I fire up the new laptop and open my e-mail. Sure enough, there’s a message from Christian sitting in the inbox. I’m practically bouncing out of my seat with glee.

  From: Christian Grey

  Subject: Working for a living

  Date: May 23 2011 17:24

  To: Anastasia Steele

  Dear Miss Steele

  I do hope you had a good day at work.

  Christian Grey

  CEO, Grey Enterprises Holdings Inc.

  I hit reply.

  From: Anastasia Steele

  Subject: Working for living

  Date: May 23 2011 17:48

  To: Christian Grey

  Sir… I had a very good day at work.

  Thank you.

  Ana

  From: Christian Grey

  Subject: Do The Work!

  Date: May 23 2011 17:50

  To: Anastasia Steele

  Miss Steele

  Delighted you had a good day.

  While you are e-mailing, you are not researching.

  Christian Grey

  CEO, Grey Enterprises Holdings Inc.

  From: Anastasia Steele

  Subject: Nuisance

  Date: May 23 2011 17:53

  To: Christian Grey

  Mr. Grey, stop e-mailing me, and I can start my assignment.

  I’d like another A.

  Ana

  I hug myself.

  From: Christian Grey

  Subject: Impatient

  Date: May 23 2011 17:55

  To: Anastasia Steele

  Miss Steele

  Stop e-mailing me – and do your assignment.

  I’d like to award another A.

  The first one was so well deserved. ;)

  Christian Grey

  CEO, Grey Enterprises Holdings Inc.

  Christian Grey just sent me a winking smiley… Oh my. I fire up Google.

  From: Anastasia Steele

  Subject: Internet Research

  Date: May 23 2011 17:59

  To: Christian Grey

  Mr. Grey

  What would you suggest I put into a search engine?

  Ana

  From: Christian Grey

  Subject: Internet Research

  Date: May 23 2011 18:02

  To: Anastasia Steele

  Miss Steele

  Always start with Wikipedia.

  No more e-mails unless you have questions. Understood?

  Christian Grey

  CEO, Grey Enterprises Holdings Inc.

  From: Anastasia Steele

  Subject: Bossy!

  Date: May 23 2011 18:04

  To: Christian Grey

  Yes… Sir.

  You are so bossy.

  Ana

  From: Christian Grey

  Subject: In Control

  Date: May 23 2011 18:06

  To: Anastasia Steele

  Anastasia, you have no idea.

  Well, maybe an inkling now.

  Do the work.

  Christian Grey

  CEO, Grey Enterprises Holdings Inc.

  I type Submissive into Wikipedia.

  Half an hour later, I feel slight queasy and frankly shocked to my core. Do I really want this stuff in my head? Jeez – is this what he gets up to in the Red Room of Pain? I sit staring at the screen, and part of me, a very moist and integral part of me – that I’ve only become acquainted with very recently, is seriously turned on. Oh my, some of this stuff is HOT. But is it for me? Holy shit… could I do this? I need space. I need to think.

  For the first time in my life, I voluntarily go for a run. I find my nasty, never-used sneakers, some sweat pants, and a t-shirt. I put my hair in pigtails, blushing at the memories they bring back, and I plug in my iPod. I can’t sit in front of that marvel of technology and look at or read any more disturbing material. I need to expend some of this excess, enervating, energy. Quite frankly, I have a mind to run to the Heathman hotel and just demand sex from the control freak. But that’s five miles, and I don’t think I’ll be able to run one mile, let alone five, and of course, he might turn me down which would be beyond humiliating.

  Kate is walking from her car as I head out of the door. She nearly drops her shopping when she sees me. Ana Steele in sneakers. I wave and don’t stop for the inquisition. I need some serious alone time. Snow Patrol blaring in my ears, I set off into the opal and aquamarine dusk.

  I pace through the park. What am I going to do? I want him, but on his terms? I just don’t know. Perhaps I should negotiate what I want. Go through that ridiculous contract line by line and say what is acceptable and what isn’t. My research has told me that legally it’s unenforceable. He must know that. I figure that it just sets up the parameters of the relationship. It illustrates what I can expect from him and what he expects from me – my total submission. Am I prepared to give him that? Am I even capable?

  I am plagued by one question - why is he like this? Is it because he was seduced at such a young age? I just don’t know. He’s still such a mystery.

  I stop beside a large spruce and put my hands on my knees, breathing hard, dragging precious air into my lungs. Oh, this feels good, cathartic. I can feel my resolve hardening. Yes. I need to tell him what’s okay and what isn’t. I need to e-mail him my thoughts, and then we can discuss these on Wednesday. I take a deep cleansing breath, then jog back to the apartment.

  Kate has been shopping, as only she can, for clothes for her holiday to Barbados. Mainly bikinis and matching sarongs. She will look fabulous in all of them, yet she still makes me sit and comment while she tries on each and every one. There are only so many ways one can say – you look fabulous, Kate. She has a curvy, slim figure to die for. She doesn’t do it on purpose, I know, but I haul my sorry, perspiration clad, old t-shirt, sweat pants, and sneakers ass into my room on the pretext of packing more boxes. Could I feel any more inadequate? Taking the awesome free technology with me, I set the laptop up on my desk. I e-mail Christian.

  From: Anastasia Steele

  Subject: Shocked of WSUV

  Date: May 23 2011 20:33

  To: Christian Grey

  Okay, I’ve seen enough.

  It was nice knowing you.

  Ana

  I press send, hugging myself, laughing at my little joke. Will he find it as funny? Oh shit – probably not. Christian Grey is not famed for his sense of humor. But I know it exists, I’ve experienced it. Perhaps I’ve gone too far. I wait for his answer.

  I wait… and wait. I glance at my alarm clock. Ten minutes have passed.

  To distract myself from the anxiety that blooms in my belly, I start doing what I told Kate I would be doing – packing up my room. I begin by cramming my books into a crate. By nine, I’ve heard nothing. Perhaps he’s out. I pout petulantly as I plug my iPod ear buds in, listen to Snow Patrol, and sit down at my small desk to reread the contract and make my comments.

  I don’t know why I glance up, maybe I catch a slight movement from the corner of my eye, I don’t know, but when I do, he’s standing in the doorway of my bedroom watching me intently. He’s wearing his grey flannel pants and a white linen shirt, gently twirling his car keys. I pull my ear buds out and freeze. Fuck!

  “Good evening, Anastasia.” His voice is cool, his expression completely guarded and unreadable. The capacity to speak d
eserts me. Damn Kate for letting him in here with no warning. Vaguely, I’m aware that I’m still in my sweats, unshowered, yucky, and he’s just gloriously yummy, his pants doing that hanging from the hips thing, and what’s more, he’s here in my bedroom.

  “I felt that your e-mail warranted a reply in person,” he explains dryly.

  I open my mouth and then close it again, twice. The joke is on me. Never in this or any alternative universe did I expect him to drop everything and turn up here.

  “May I sit?” he asks, his eyes now dancing with humor – thank heavens – maybe he’ll see the funny side?

  I nod. The power of speech remains elusive. Christian Grey is sitting on my bed.

  “I wondered what your bedroom would look like,” he says.

  I glance around it, plotting an escape route, no – there’s still only the door or window. My room is functional but cozy – sparse white wicker furniture and a white iron double bed with a patchwork quilt, made by my mother when she was in her folksy American quilting phase. It’s all pale blue and cream.

  “It’s very serene and peaceful in here,” he murmurs. Not at the moment… not with you here.

  Finally, my medulla oblongata recalls its purpose. I breathe.

  “How…?”

  He smiles at me.

  “I’m still at the Heathman.”

  I know that.

  “Would you like a drink?” Politeness wins out over everything else I’d like to say.

  “No thank you, Anastasia.” He smiles a dazzling, crooked smile, his head cocked slightly to one side.

  Well, I might need one.

  “So, it was nice knowing me?”

  Holy cow, is he offended? I stare down at my fingers. How am I going to dig myself out of this? If I tell him it was a joke, I don’t think he’ll be impressed.

  “I thought you’d reply by e-mail.” My voice is small, pathetic.

  “Are you biting your lower lip deliberately?” he asks darkly.

  I blink up at him, gasping, freeing my lip.

  “I wasn’t aware I was biting my lip,” I murmur softly.

  My heart is pounding. I can feel that pull, that delicious electricity between us charging, filling the space between us with static. He’s sitting so close to me, his eyes dark smoky gray, his elbows resting on his knees, his legs apart. Leaning forward, he slowly undoes one of my pigtails, his fingers freeing my hair. My breathing is shallow, and I cannot move. I watch hypnotized as his hand moves to my second pigtail, and pulling the hair tie, he loosens the braid with his long, skilled fingers.

  “So you decided on some exercise,” he breathes, his voice soft and melodious. His fingers gently tuck my hair behind my ear. “Why, Anastasia?” His fingers circle my ear, and very softly, he tugs my earlobe, rhythmically. It’s so sexual.

  “I needed time to think,” I whisper. I’m all rabbit/headlights, moth/flame, bird/snake… and he knows exactly what he’s doing to me.

  “Think about what, Anastasia?”

  “You.”

  “And you decided that it was nice knowing me? Do you mean knowing me in the biblical sense?”

  Oh shit. I flush.

  “I didn’t think you were familiar with the Bible.”

  “I went to Sunday School, Anastasia. It taught me a great deal.”

  “I don’t remember reading about nipple clamps in the Bible. Perhaps you were taught from a modern translation.”

  His lips arch with a trace of a smile, and my eyes are drawn to his beautiful sculptured mouth.

  “Well, I thought I should come and remind you how nice it was knowing me.”

  Holy crap. I stare at him open mouthed, and his fingers move from my ear to my chin.

  “What do you say to that, Miss Steele?”

  His gray eyes blaze at me, his challenge intrinsic in his stare. His lips are parted – he’s waiting, coiled to strike. Desire – acute, liquid and smoldering, combusts deep in my belly. I take preemptive action and launch myself at him. Somehow he moves, I have no idea how, and in the blink of an eye I’m on the bed pinned beneath him, my arms stretched out and held above my head, his free hand clutching my face, and his mouth finds mine.

  His tongue is in my mouth, claiming and possessing me, and I revel in the force he uses. I feel him against the length of my body. He wants me, and this does strange, delicious things to my insides. Not Kate in her little bikinis, not one of the fifteen, not evil Mrs. Robinson. Me. This beautiful man wants me. My inner goddess glows so bright she could light up Portland. He stops kissing me, and opening my eyes, I find him gazing down at me.

  “Trust me?” he breathes.

  I nod, wide-eyed, my heart bouncing off my ribs, my blood thundering around my body.

  He reaches down, and from his pants pocket, he takes out his silver grey silk tie… that silver grey woven tie that leaves small impressions of its weave on my skin. He moves so quickly, sitting astride me as he fastens my wrists together, but this time, he ties the other end of the tie to one of the spokes of my white iron headboard. He pulls at my binding, checking it’s secure. I’m not going anywhere. I’m tied, literally, to my bed, and I’m so aroused.

  He slides off me and stands beside the bed, staring down at me, his eyes dark with want. His look is triumphant, mixed with relief.

  “That’s better,” he murmurs and smiles a wicked, knowing smile. He bends and starts undoing one of my sneakers. Oh no… no… my feet. No. I’ve just been running.

  “No,” I protest, trying to kick him off.

  He stops.

  “If you struggle, I’ll tie your feet, too. If you make a noise, Anastasia, I will gag you. Keep quiet. Katherine is probably outside listening right now.”

  Gag me! Kate! I shut up.

  He removes my shoes and my socks efficiently and slowly peels off my sweat pants. Oh – what panties am I wearing? He lifts me and pulls the quilt and my duvet out from underneath me and places me back down, this time on the sheets.

  “Now then.” He licks his bottom lip slowly. “You’re biting that lip, Anastasia. You know the effect it has on me.” He places his long index finger over my mouth, a warning.

  Oh my. I can barely contain myself, lying helpless, watching him move gracefully around my room. It’s a heady aphrodisiac. Slowly, almost leisurely, he removes his shoes and socks, undoes his pants, and lifts his shirt off over his head.

  “I think you’ve seen too much,” he chuckles slyly. He sits astride me again, pulls my t-shirt up, and I think he’s going to take it off me, but he rolls it up to my neck and then pulls it up over my head so he can see my mouth and my nose, but it covers my eyes. And because it’s folded over – I cannot see a thing through it.

  “Mmm,” he breathes appreciatively. “This just gets better and better. I’m going to get a drink.”

  Leaning down, he kisses me, his lips tender against mine, and his weight shifts off the bed. I hear the quiet creak of the bedroom door. Get a drink. Where? Here? Portland? Seattle? I strain to hear him. I can make out low rumblings, and I know he’s talking to Kate – oh no… he’s practically naked. What’s she going to say? I hear a faint popping sound. What’s that? He returns, the door creaking once more, his feet padding across the bedroom floor, and ice tinkling against glass as it swirls in liquid. What kind of drink? He shuts the door and shuffles around removing his pants. They drop to the floor, and I know he’s naked. He sits astride me again.

  “Are you thirsty, Anastasia?” he asks, his voice teasing

  “Yes,” I breathe, because my mouth is suddenly parched. I hear the ice clink against the glass, and he puts it down again and leans down and kisses me, pouring a delicious crisp liquid into my mouth as he does. It’s white wine. It’s so unexpected, hot, though it’s chilled, and Christian’s lips are cool.

  “More?” he whispers.

  I nod. It tastes all the more divine because it’s been in his mouth. He leans down, and I drink another mouthful from his lips… oh my.

  “Le
t’s not go too far; we know your capacity for alcohol is limited, Anastasia.”

  I can’t help it. I grin, and he leans down to deliver another delicious mouthful. He shifts so he’s lying beside me, his erection at my hip. Oh, I want him inside me.

  “Is this nice?” he asks, but I hear the edge in his voice.

  I tense. He moves the glass again and leans down, kissing me and depositing a small shard of ice in my mouth with a little wine. He slowly and leisurely trails chilled kisses down the center of my body, from the base of my throat, between my breasts, down my torso, and to my belly. He pops a fragment of ice in my navel in a pool of cool, cold wine. It burns all the way down to the depths of my belly. Wow.

  “Now you have to keep still,” he whispers. “If you move, Anastasia, you’ll get wine all over the bed.”

  My hips flex automatically.

  “Oh no. If you spill the wine, I will punish you, Miss Steele.”

  I groan and desperately fight the urge to tilt my hips, pulling on my restraint. Oh no… please.

  With one finger, he pulls down my bra cups in turn, my breasts pushed up, exposed and vulnerable. Leaning down, he kisses and tugs at each of my nipples in turn with cool, cold lips. I fight my body as it tries to arch in response.

  “How nice is this?” he breathes, blowing on one of my nipples.

  I hear another clink of ice, and then I can feel it round my right nipple as he tugs the left one with his lips. I moan, struggling not to move. It’s sweet, agonizing torture.

  “If you spill the wine, I won’t let you come.”

  “Oh… please… Christian… Sir… Please.” He’s driving me insane. I hear him smile.

  The ice in my navel is melting. I am beyond warm – warm and chilled and wanting. Wanting him, inside me. Now.

  His cool fingers trail languidly across my belly. My skin is oversensitive, my hips flex automatically, and the now warmer liquid from my navel seeps over my belly. Christian moves quickly, lapping it up with his tongue, kissing, biting me softly, sucking.

  “Oh dear, Anastasia, you moved. What am I going to do to you?”

  I’m panting loudly. All I can concentrate on is his voice and his touch. Nothing else is real. Nothing else matters, nothing else registers on my radar. His fingers slip into my panties, and I’m rewarded with his unguarded sharp intake of air.