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  “No, Anastasia.” I’m surprised by her vehemence and shake my head to reinforce my denial. It’s perfectly normal for a submissive to check with exes that their new Dominant knows what he’s doing.

  “No—I’ll do this on my own, thank you very much,” she insists, and reaches for her comforter and quilt, pulling them up to her chin.

  What? She’s upset?

  “Anastasia, I…I didn’t mean to offend you.”

  “I’m not offended. I’m appalled.”

  “Appalled?”

  “I don’t want to talk to one of your ex-girlfriends, slave, sub, whatever you call them.”

  Oh.

  “Anastasia Steele, are you jealous?” I sound bewildered…because I am. She flushes beet red, and I know I’ve found the root of her problem. How the hell can she be jealous?

  Sweetheart, I had a life before you.

  A very active life.

  “Are you staying?” she snaps.

  What? Of course not. “I have a breakfast meeting tomorrow at The Heathman. Besides, I told you, I don’t sleep with girlfriends, slaves, subs, or anyone. Friday and Saturday were exceptions. It won’t happen again.”

  She presses her lips together with her stubborn expression. “Well, I’m tired now,” she says.

  Fuck.

  “Are you kicking me out?”

  This is not how this is supposed to go.

  “Yes.”

  What the hell?

  Disarmed again, by Miss Steele. “Well, that’s another first,” I mutter.

  Kicked out. I can’t believe it.

  “So nothing you want to discuss now? About the contract?” I ask, as an excuse to prolong my stay.

  “No,” she grunts. Her petulance is irritating, and were she truly mine, it would not be tolerated.

  “God, I’d like to give you a good hiding. You’d feel a lot better, and so would I,” I tell her.

  “You can’t say things like that. I haven’t signed anything yet.” Her eyes flash with defiance.

  Oh, baby, I can say it. I just can’t do it. Not until you let me. “A man can dream, Anastasia. Wednesday?” I still want this. Why, though, I don’t know; she’s so difficult. I give her a brief kiss.

  “Wednesday,” she agrees, and I’m relieved once again. “I’ll see you out,” she adds, her tone softer. “If you give me a minute.” She pushes me off the bed and pulls on her T-shirt. “Please pass me my sweatpants,” she orders, pointing to them.

  Wow. Miss Steele can be a bossy little thing.

  “Yes, ma’am,” I quip, knowing that she won’t get the reference. But she narrows her eyes. She knows I’m making fun of her, but she says nothing as she slips her pants on.

  Feeling a little bemused at the prospect of being tossed out onto the street, I follow her through the living room to the front door.

  When was the last time this happened?

  Never.

  She opens the door, but she’s staring down at her hands.

  What is going on here?

  “You okay?” I ask, and brush her lower lip with my thumb. Perhaps she doesn’t want me to go—or perhaps she can’t wait for me to leave?

  “Yes,” she says, her tone soft and subdued. I’m not sure I believe her.

  “Wednesday,” I remind her. I’ll see her then. Bending down, I kiss her, and she closes her eyes. And I don’t want to go. Not with her uncertainty on my mind. I hold her head and deepen the kiss and she responds, surrendering her mouth to me.

  Oh, baby, don’t give up on me. Give it a try.

  She grasps my arms, kissing me back, and I don’t want to stop. She’s intoxicating and the darkness is quiet, calmed by the young woman in front of me. Reluctantly, I pull back and lean my forehead against hers.

  She’s breathless, like me. “Anastasia, what are you doing to me?”

  “I could say the same to you,” she whispers.

  I know I have to leave. She has me in a tailspin, and I don’t know why. I kiss her forehead and walk down the path toward the R8. She stands watching me from the doorway. She hasn’t gone in. I smile, pleased that she’s still watching as I climb into the car.

  When I look back, she’s gone.

  Shit. What just happened? No wave good-bye?

  I start the car and begin the drive back to Portland, analyzing what’s taken place between us.

  She e-mailed me.

  I went to her.

  We fucked.

  She threw me out before I was ready to leave.

  For the first time—well, maybe not the first time—I feel a little used, for sex. It’s a disturbing feeling that reminds me of my time with Elena.

  Hell! Miss Steele is topping from the bottom, and she doesn’t even know it. And fool that I am, I’m letting her.

  I have to turn this around. This soft-sell approach is messing with my head.

  But I want her. I need her to sign.

  Is it just the chase? Is that what’s turning me on? Or is it her?

  Fuck, I don’t know. But I hope to find out more on Wednesday. And on a positive note, that was one hell of a nice way to spend an evening. I smirk in the rearview mirror and pull into the garage at the hotel.

  When I’m back in my room I sit down at my laptop.

  Focus on what you want, where you want to be. Isn’t that what Flynn is always harassing me about, his solution-based shit?

  * * *

  From: Christian Grey

  Subject: This Evening

  Date: May 23 2011 23:16

  To: Anastasia Steele

  Miss Steele,

  I look forward to receiving your notes on the contract.

  Until then, sleep well, baby.

  Christian Grey

  CEO, Grey Enterprises Holdings, Inc.

  And I want to add, Thank you for another diverting evening… but that seems a little over the top. Pushing my laptop aside because Ana will probably be asleep, I pick up the Detroit report and continue reading.

  TUESDAY, MAY 24, 2011

  * * *

  The thought of siting the electronics plant in Detroit is depressing. I loathe Detroit; it holds nothing but bad memories for me. Memories I do my damnedest to forget. They surface, mainly at night, to remind me of what I am and where I came from.

  But Michigan is offering excellent tax incentives. It’s hard to ignore what they are proposing in this report. I toss it on the dining table and take a sip of my Sancerre. Shit. It’s warm. It’s late. I should sleep. As I stand and stretch, there’s a ping on my computer. An e-mail. It might be from Ros, so I have a quick look.

  It’s from Ana. Why is she still awake?

  * * *

  From: Anastasia Steele

  Subject: Issues

  Date: May 24 2011 00:02

  To: Christian Grey

  Dear Mr. Grey,

  Here is my list of issues. I look forward to discussing them more fully at dinner on Wednesday.

  The numbers refer to clauses:

  She’s referring to the clauses? Miss Steele has been thorough. I pull a copy up on screen for my reference.

  CONTRACT

  Made this day _____ of 2011 (“The Commencement Date”)

  BETWEEN

  MR. CHRISTIAN GREY of 301 Escala, Seattle, WA 98889

  (“The Dominant”)

  MISS ANASTASIA STEELE of 1114 SW Green Street, Apartment 7, Haven Heights, Vancouver, WA 98888

  (“The Submissive”)

  THE PARTIES AGREE AS FOLLOWS

  1 The following are the terms of a binding contract between the Dominant and the Submissive.

  FUNDAMENTAL TERMS

  2 The fundamental purpose of this contract is to allow the Submissive to explore her sensuality and her limits safely, with du
e respect and regard for her needs, her limits, and her well-being.

  3 The Dominant and the Submissive agree and acknowledge that all that occurs under the terms of this contract will be consensual, confidential, and subject to the agreed limits and safety procedures set out in this contract. Additional limits and safety procedures may be agreed in writing.

  4 The Dominant and the Submissive each warrant that they suffer from no sexual, serious, infectious, or life-threatening illnesses, including but not limited to HIV, herpes, and hepatitis. If during the Term (as defined below) or any extended term of this contract either party should be diagnosed with or become aware of any such illness, he or she undertakes to inform the other immediately and in any event prior to any form of physical contact between the parties.

  5 Adherence to the above warranties, agreements, and undertakings (and any additional limits and safety procedures agreed under clause 3 above) are fundamental to this contract. Any breach shall render it void with immediate effect and each party agrees to be fully responsible to the other for the consequence of any breach.

  6 Everything in this contract must be read and interpreted in the light of the fundamental purpose and the fundamental terms set out in clauses 2–5 above.

  ROLES

  7 The Dominant shall take responsibility for the well-being and the proper training, guidance, and discipline of the Submissive. He shall decide the nature of such training, guidance, and discipline and the time and place of its administration, subject to the agreed terms, limitations, and safety procedures set out in this contract or agreed additionally under clause 3 above.

  8 If at any time the Dominant should fail to keep to the agreed terms, limitations, and safety procedures set out in this contract or agreed additionally under clause 3 above, the Submissive is entitled to terminate this contract forthwith and to leave the service of the Dominant without notice.

  9 Subject to that proviso and to clauses 2–5 above, the Submissive is to serve and obey the Dominant in all things. Subject to the agreed terms, limitations, and safety procedures set out in this contract or agreed additionally under clause 3 above, she shall without query or hesitation offer the Dominant such pleasure as he may require and she shall accept without query or hesitation his training, guidance, and discipline in whatever form it may take.

  COMMENCEMENT AND TERM

  10 The Dominant and Submissive enter into this contract on the Commencement Date fully aware of its nature and undertake to abide by its conditions without exception.

  11 This contract shall be effective for a period of three calendar months from the Commencement Date (“the Term”). On the expiry of the Term the parties shall discuss whether this contract and the arrangements they have made under this contract are satisfactory and whether the needs of each party have been met. Either party may propose the extension of this contract subject to adjustments to its terms or to the arrangements they have made under it. In the absence of agreement to such extension this contract shall terminate and both parties shall be free to resume their lives separately.

  AVAILABILITY

  12 The Submissive will make herself available to the Dominant from Friday evenings through to Sunday afternoons each week during the Term at times to be specified by the Dominant (“the Allotted Times”). Further allocated time can be mutually agreed to on an ad hoc basis.

  13 The Dominant reserves the right to dismiss the Submissive from his service at any time and for any reason. The Submissive may request her release at any time, such request to be granted at the discretion of the Dominant subject only to the Submissive’s rights under clauses 2–5 and 8 above.

  LOCATION

  14 The Submissive will make herself available during the Allotted Times and agreed additional times at locations to be determined by the Dominant. The Dominant will ensure that all travel costs incurred by the Submissive for that purpose are met by the Dominant.

  SERVICE PROVISIONS

  15 The following service provisions have been discussed and agreed and will be adhered to by both parties during the Term. Both parties accept that certain matters may arise that are not covered by the terms of this contract or the service provisions, or that certain matters may be renegotiated. In such circumstances, further clauses may be proposed by way of amendment. Any further clauses or amendments must be agreed, documented, and signed by both parties and shall be subject to the fundamental terms set out under clauses 2–5 above.

  DOMINANT

  15.1 The Dominant shall make the Submissive’s health and safety a priority at all times. The Dominant shall not at any time require, request, allow, or demand the Submissive to participate at the hands of the Dominant in the activities detailed in Appendix 2 or in any act that either party deems to be unsafe. The Dominant will not undertake or permit to be undertaken any action which could cause serious injury or any risk to the Submissive’s life. The remaining subclauses of this clause 15 are to be read subject to this proviso and to the fundamental matters agreed in clauses 2–5 above.

  15.2 The Dominant accepts the Submissive as his, to own, control, dominate, and discipline during the Term. The Dominant may use the Submissive’s body at any time during the Allotted Times or any agreed additional times in any manner he deems fit, sexually or otherwise.

  15.3 The Dominant shall provide the Submissive with all necessary training and guidance in how to properly serve the Dominant.

  15.4 The Dominant shall maintain a stable and safe environment in which the Submissive may perform her duties in service of the Dominant.

  15.5 The Dominant may discipline the Submissive as necessary to ensure the Submissive fully appreciates her role of subservience to the Dominant and to discourage unacceptable conduct. The Dominant may flog, spank, whip, or corporally punish the Submissive as he sees fit, for purposes of discipline, for his own personal enjoyment, or for any other reason, which he is not obliged to provide.

  15.6 In training and in the administration of discipline the Dominant shall ensure that no permanent marks are made upon the Submissive’s body nor any injuries incurred that may require medical attention.

  15.7 In training and in the administration of discipline the Dominant shall ensure that the discipline and the instruments used for the purposes of discipline are safe, shall not be used in such a way as to cause serious harm, and shall not in any way exceed the limits defined and detailed in this contract.

  15.8 In case of illness or injury the Dominant shall care for the Submissive, seeing to her health and safety, encouraging and, when necessary, ordering medical attention when it is judged necessary by the Dominant.

  15.9 The Dominant shall maintain his own good health and seek medical attention when necessary in order to maintain a risk-free environment.

  15.10 The Dominant shall not loan his Submissive to another Dominant.

  15.11 The Dominant may restrain, handcuff, or bind the Submissive at any time during the Allotted Times or any agreed additional times for any reason and for extended periods of time, giving due regard to the health and safety of the Submissive.

  15.12 The Dominant will ensure that all equipment used for the purposes of training and discipline shall be maintained in a clean, hygienic, and safe state at all times.

  SUBMISSIVE

  15.13 The Submissive accepts the Dominant as her master, with the understanding that she is now the property of the Dominant, to be dealt with as the Dominant pleases during the Term generally but specifically during the Allotted Times and any additional agreed allotted times.

  15.14 The Submissive shall obey the rules (“the Rules”) set out in Appendix 1 to this agreement.

  15.15 The Submissive shall serve the Dominant in any way the Dominant sees fit and shall endeavor to please the Dominant at all times to the best of her ability.

  15.16 The Submissive shall take all measures necessary to maintain her good health and shall req
uest or seek medical attention whenever it is needed, keeping the Dominant informed at all times of any health issues that may arise.

  15.17 The Submissive will ensure that she procures oral contraception and ensure that she takes it as and when prescribed to prevent any pregnancy.

  15.18 The Submissive shall accept without question any and all disciplinary actions deemed necessary by the Dominant and remember her status and role in regard to the Dominant at all times.

  15.19 The Submissive shall not touch or pleasure herself sexually without permission from the Dominant.

  15.20 The Submissive shall submit to any sexual activity demanded by the Dominant and shall do so without hesitation or argument.

  15.21 The Submissive shall accept whippings, floggings, spankings, canings, paddlings, or any other discipline the Dominant should decide to administer, without hesitation, inquiry, or complaint.

  15.22 The Submissive shall not look directly into the eyes of the Dominant except when specifically instructed to do so. The Submissive shall keep her eyes cast down and maintain a quiet and respectful bearing in the presence of the Dominant.

  15.23 The Submissive shall always conduct herself in a respectful manner to the Dominant and shall address him only as Sir, Mr. Grey, or such other title as the Dominant may direct.

  15.24 The Submissive will not touch the Dominant without his express permission to do so.

  ACTIVITIES

  16 The Submissive shall not participate in activities or any sexual acts that either party deems to be unsafe or any activities detailed in Appendix 2.

  17 The Dominant and the Submissive have discussed the activities set out in Appendix 3 and recorded in writing on Appendix 3 their agreement in respect of them.

  SAFE WORDS

  18 The Dominant and the Submissive recognize that the Dominant may make demands of the Submissive that cannot be met without incurring physical, mental, emotional, spiritual, or other harm at the time the demands are made to the Submissive. In such circumstances related to this, the Submissive may make use of a safe word (“the Safe Word[s]”). Two Safe Words will be invoked depending on the severity of the demands.